Posted by April8 on December 8, 2006, at 14:10:09
i don't have parents because mine were abusive and then cast me out at a very young age. The holidays are killing me. I have a great husband but his parents are self involved and really really involved in his sister in-laws and brother life in a way that they aren't in ours. He tells me we wouldn't want the attention from them that they are giving because his parents are very controlling and he is happy to live in another state.
My inner child is looking in from the outside and I just wish to God I had his parents attention the way that they do. Now I find out she is pregnant again (after having the first grandchild)
I am in so much pain, it is because of my trauma with my biological parents but I am really in hell this week. I am trying not to drink but think tonight I may just go for it.
I am so so depressed and despairing right now. i can identify with anyone here who lost their family, and even worse I lost mine simply because they did not love me.
April
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