Posted by Maynerd on November 11, 2005, at 4:20:20
For so long I have let my memories of us keep me their slave
Running away from myself has kept me from visiting your grave
To say that we were two peas in a pod was extremely true
The meaning of my existence was my complete love of you
That you loved me equally as much brought peace to my soul
Then that darn demon from our past drug you into this hole
I can still remember looking into your coffin and starting to cry
And how I hated myself and God for our letting you die
I spiraled downward for years trying to escape the pain
Putting meth in my veins trying to wipe the truth from my brain
The truth that I was terrified every time any affection was shown
Believing that if I again loved, death would once again make me alone
I hated you for taking my love with you and leaving me this hurt
Leaving me to deal with a broken heart in this spiritual desert
In took me 20 years from that morning to defeat the demons inside
To chase away the monkey and no longer find myself wanting to hide
Someone special like you helped show me that it is time to break free
That your love will always be with me and that truly is God’s Key
Finally I can admit to myself that I understood the suffering in your eyes
I finally have the peace and strength inside to say my last goodbyes
Your memories will always be a part of me even as I let the past go
In closing all that is left for me to say dearest Amy, is both goodbye and hello
poster:Maynerd
thread:577668
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