Posted by dreamcatcher on October 29, 2005, at 14:14:59
In reply to Re: Complicated Grief, posted by Augustina on October 13, 2005, at 9:31:22
Well, I'm not sure where to start except that I understand what you are going thru. In the last 5 years I have lost my father, my arm,my best friend/cousin,5 very close friends to cancer,I saw my cat get killed by a dog(broke my finger trying to get her out of his mouth),got out of a 8 yr relationship(it was a bad relationship)however,it still brings up feeling(all kinds)..my family's stress from my father's estate and my best friend of 30 yrs baled out on me(for some reason it didn't surprise me, I've seen her be very cold to people,,just didn't think it would happen to me) and I turned 50.......My enter core is just totally heavy,sad,dead and totally just depressed. I will not go to a therapist/they just do not work for me//I have been to many,,,,
As for motivation, What is that? I go to work everyday(which is not that great anymore),,I come home, I do this everyday. I cry everyday,,yes everyday--No one sees me cry/I hide it. I just carry this all inside,,I am very tired ...This is the first time I have talked/written about this...I could list more loses but what is the use. Thank you for listening...P.S To the lady who lost her pet and the one who is sadden by the thought of losing her pet...Pets give us uncondition love....when we lose them, it's a pain that cuts so deep,(after all the little ones loved us when we didn't love ourselves and jumped for joy when they saw us,when we thought no one cared) we feel totally lost...However,,to love your animals as much as you did,,,it would be a lost to the "animal world" if you do not go and adopt another pet...Loving souls like ya'll have been given a blessing---Do not think it lessen your love for your pet,(when you get another) it shows your lost pet must have been great,,,,afterall you opened your home and heart to another gentle soul...
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