Posted by Jai Narayan on October 9, 2004, at 7:52:30
I read "the Five People You Meet In Heaven" by Mitch Albom a few days ago.
Maybe that's where last nights dream came from:DREAM
I was in the basement with my family.
They were having a lively discussion.
Dad looked great in his hat and fall clothes.
My sisters were spunky and fun.
My mom had somehow piped music into the backyard...
the garden looked heavenly.
I was taking paintings off their stretcher bars....to pack up and move.The agonizing pain was when I woke up and realized....
we are no longer young.
Mom and Dad are dead.
The house we lived in for 52 years was sold to another family.
It was all a dream."Merrily, merrily, merrily...life is but a dream"
my mother used to sing this song to us when when we were children.
Then we would sing it as a round together and I always pondered the meaning.
So why am I on the Grief site?I miss my family..
mom and dad.
My youth.
I am turning the corner into the grave...
this is the phase of my life and I know I will dream of these times often as my body withers and my mind turns inward and on the earlier times.
I am 56 on my saturn return with a broken ankle time off from work....
which allows me the gift of time to ponder.At this point I am grieving the loss of my youth, my family
all the bright promise of my life to come.I have made my choices, chosen where to live, who to live with and where to work. I am happy about these choices.
Now as I turn my face away from the future and look at the present...then ponder the past I am saddened by the physical changes.
I need to join a Crones society, sit on the outer circle at the camp fire....
join the elders.
Today I do this with resignation....
hopefully I will eventually embrace my coming liberation from the flesh.
Jai
poster:Jai Narayan
thread:400664
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