Posted by corafree on August 8, 2004, at 16:54:01
In reply to xoxo (nm) » Cass, posted by Shar on August 7, 2004, at 22:42:39
You too! It was 6 mos. since Dad died 8-2. It still feels like yesterday. If he were here, I know I would feel much stronger. One of my ex's said all men wanted me for was sex and I guess he was right. Even now, my most recent ex will help me out w/ something and expect an IOU. My Dad is the only man that other loved me, myself, my being, not my body. He asked my brother to look after his girls. My bro' hasn't returned a call to me since Dad died, or called me to ask if I am ok? My identity left when Dad left. Pray my bro' will come through w/ some support someday. Why it needs to be a man is because all the men that have loved me, or I guess my body, have left me. The grieving has lessened just a bit. I know I need a med adjustment. On same starting dose of Eff-XR as began in April, but not able to get a state doc to see me, ... til' next Weds. Do you think I should have been cut off my benzo? I am allowed 1/2mg Klonopin x4 a day for two more weeks, then none. My anxiety is immobilizing me, making it hard for me to move on. I don't know how to get through to a doc that I need Xanax. It is the only thing that works, I'm sorry to say. I know better than to use benzos re: suicide ... experienced in that. So glad to know 'you're out there'. OXcf
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