Posted by Mochakitty on June 16, 2004, at 3:39:00
My 74 year old dad had quadruple bypass surgery last week, and will have surgery for his stomach cancer this week. The cancer hasn't spread. Don't know if part or the entire stomach will have to be removed. Will have to fly back home for the first time in 13 years.
I have suffered from severe social anxiety, advoidant personality disorder, some autistic tendencies, constant suicidal thoughts, and severe depression for over 20 years. I am 35.Been living of my parents. Teh only people I have contact with are my parents and my sister. No one has ever really liked me. I hate going back to my home town, but I will need to provide them support and help my dad out of the hospital after he hopefully recovers. have to leave my cat here.....haven't left her alone for more than half a day for the 4 years I've had her. If my dad dies, I won't be in any condition to help my mom. 74 is too yong. I am so worried about what waits me. Suicide probably. Suicide has constantly been on my mind since I was a teenager. Tried psychiatry, medication, didn't work, felt betrayed by my quack shrink. More later when I get something to eat. Oh btw, i am lso obese at 225 lbs.
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