Posted by the lonely one on December 29, 2003, at 19:44:46
Hi
I found this sight by accident but so far it has helped me speak from the heart.I have over the last couple of years suffered more pain than in the rest of my life. It probably started when my now ex decided to leave to move to another city. At first I was upset but we agreed that I would move once I had finished some business I had to deal with. After moving she told me she was pregnant. I had not felt so happy and we made plans. Over the coming weeks she told me that she was getting offers from jobs in other cities which she wanted to take. The job offers would mean that she would have to work long hours initially but would then come down. The time to start the job would have been when she was 6 months pregnant. I tried to convince her that another opportunity would come after the birth. After some arguments she agreed that she would not take up the job. To my shock, one week before xmas she told me that she would be taking up the offer. I said what about our unborn child. In one breath she told me that she was going to have an abortion and was ending our relationship. After that i do not think i have ever felt happiness. Every xmas after that is like a rerun of that time and the pain which never goes away returns with a vengence.
Thanks for listening.
poster:the lonely one
thread:294467
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/grief/20030903/msgs/294467.html