Posted by Jai on October 31, 2003, at 8:38:39
My father died of a broken heart on Valentines Day 2001. He wished for my mother to be there with him. My mother was just across the street in the state mental hospital in a lock down ward. She was sinking into her manic/depressive (late onset) schizophrenic disorder. She kept saying dad was already dead. That would have hurt dad to hear so she never did visit him on his deathbed. He died alone and quite sad. This year on April Fools day my mother's funeral was held. She died surrounded by hospital staff who loved her. My sister and her daughter were racing to be there but got caught speeding and while they were being issued a ticket, my mother died. I am relieved it's all over. My mother was the hardest part of my life; she was cruel and unkind. She was always the emotional and intellectual center of our family. Her family was filled with mentally ill people. My father loved my mother beyond all reason. He was loyal and true. It was a drama that unfolded my entire life. I am relieved it's all over. Now I want to know what happened. It's kind of like looking back at a 100-car pile up on the highway and wondering what happened. How did I make it out alive? Mom always said they (the Docs) were making a documentary about her life. We used to joke, as children, that if we went to the windows we would see the camera crew running and hiding. The movie was titled "Peggy". It would be one hell of a movie.
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