Posted by lynn970 on October 3, 2005, at 20:04:31
In reply to religious?, posted by rainbowbrite on October 2, 2005, at 20:46:12
I dont call it religious. I was raised in a Catholic home. I did not know Jesus though. I guess all I had was religion.
I did have a growing hunger for more of God though. When I would say my prayers at night as I did all of my life, I began to feel like God was there. I had always just said repetious prayers in the past. It meant nothing to me. Now, I was actually just talking to God. I cant explain it, but in my mind I say A hand holding a swing with a little girl swinging on it. Below the swing was fire. I felt as if God was holding my up. Holding me, protecting me from the destruction that I was headed for if I kept on my destructive path. It wasnt scarry. I felt love like I had never felt before.
I asked Jesus into my heart shortly after my experience above. I was not at a church. No one lead me into a prayer. I was by myself.
I cannot explain the joy, love, peace, and everything wonderful that I felt. In a moment, God had delivered me from smoking. I could not say foul words anymore, and my interests had completely changed. I was 18 years old at the time. I was not on any meds at the time, nor did I need any. I had such a wonderful prayer life. I saw miracles happen. I remember praying for people and they were healed.Unfortunately, I began to neglect my prayer life. I slowly stopped my Bible reading, and slowly began to backslide. I even began smoking again. After having a baby, I needed to get on meds for depression/meds. My spiritual life was dry. Not gone, but not flourishing either. I had too much comprimise in my life.
Praise God! Praise God! I am back. I have rededicated my life to God. The joy is back. I have quit smoking again, and I am headed in the right direction. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I used to be either.
It is not religion anymore for me. It is a relationship with a loving, real, powerful heavenly father.
Luv ya lots,
Lynn
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