Posted by Daisym on April 15, 2005, at 10:40:23
In reply to Re: Williams: Child Abuse/Abandoned by God, posted by psycjw on April 15, 2005, at 6:52:56
Thank you for that long, thoughtful reply. I knew when I asked that there are no real answers except to have faith in God's love. I often wonder how people with no faith get through the really hard stuff. Sometimes I throw up my hands and say, "whatever lesson I'm supposed to be learning, obviously I'm not learning it fast enough. Please guide me in more obvious way."
One of my favorite lessons was from a lady in my church. I have three wonderful boys but they were a handful when they were little and every Sunday I would pray for patience. When I mentioned what I was praying for she said, "It seems to me that God keeps testing your patience to show you that you DO have it...perhaps if you stop praying for more of it, he'll stop testing that which you have." Hmmm...
Therapy is the most challenging thing I have ever done. It feels like being stripped to your core and exposed to God without defenses or explanations. Especially when I question Him. Or I question my ability to keep going. We've talked about suicide as a sin...a very hard discussion to have. I think these are the dark moments when you feel most abandoned by God.
Again, thank you for your reply. You've given me a lot to think about.
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