Posted by corafree on January 28, 2005, at 1:18:56
In reply to Re: Has anyone had success on Effexor » corafree, posted by not2late4u on January 26, 2005, at 21:54:30
Well, look around and my Dad is definitely gone. Grief highs and lows. May be time for faith. My little sister, the only member of my fam' quite as sensitive as I and touched by Dad's way of quite comfort, will be arriving here w/ my mother in a few days. We'll, my sis and I, see Dad in each other's eyes. I specifically warned her that I have no idea what form I will take on the particular day of his death, and let her know I expected to respect any way she may feel.
Oh, what I wanted to say was; she called me crying on way to work last week. She said, "I just wanna' know where he's at." Time for faith.
Hard keep the faith w/ pain and anxiety , and if someone doesn't care about me at the P doc or therapy, it will certainly crush me for a few days, then I'll pop back out like a liter soda bottle, stiffen up and 'play the game, do what is necessary to stay in the game'.
I've not studied the Bible for fear. I just want to believe we are human and make mistakes, and though an eye for an eye is tempting, don't believe in that sort of action. Doctors; hmmm, all I ask for is that you help me to feel well, don't look through me as you prepare for your next appt.
Try to pray properly, and recall if promised to pray for someone. Try not ask for too much at once and always so 'thank you.'
I think my father lives here he is most comfortable now, somewhere in the hearts of my sister and I; but WHAT I REALLY WANT TO SAY IS:
I just want to know where he's at!; just like my little sister. If we don't find him, then who has our backs???
Always wondering why attacked because I thought I was good Jesus, and your father???
Need remove these fingers from keyboard.
Wish I'd been properly diagnosed and helped and not gone down, ya' know, stayed up, before he was gone. cf
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