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Posted by tai daluna on September 10, 2004, at 4:46:54

In reply to Re: Suicide 2 » rayww, posted by PTSD_Girl on September 8, 2004, at 21:35:59

it sounds to me that you are really suffering right now. i too suffer from agonizing, enduring ptsd... i know that it helps me to go to holy places when i am hurting badly. eventho i am not christian, i have taken refuge in christian churches, as well as other holy places too (temples, etc). sometimes i just need sanctuary; a place to rest the weight that i carry. i recently was prayed over by a minister at a church during a particularly terrible time for me. i went there wanting to do drugs again, or cut myself, or hook-- anything to answer the powerlessness and rage i felt-- but the next morning i awoke as if reborn, refreshed.
you do not have to carry the weight of your history alone. it was not your fault. it is alright to ask someone, to ask god, to come into you and fill you with love, and to keep you safe.
i have attempted suicide multiple times and been in the hospital for it, but that was a long time ago: now i can hardly think of it, because people do really love me, and i am sure that people do really love you too. i know now when i need sanctuary, and can ask for it. i hope if you did, maybe it would help you like it helps me sometimes.
imho, it is not so wrong to be alive for others. i am alive for those around me to love, and so that i may love. that is my purpose here. i am not sure what the other purpose is? perhaps others have different purposes, but at the core, that is why i live. when i am in the dark of ptsd hell, this consoles me. that i love. i love. i love. i make it a mantra. it was what i am good at; that and music.
i am thinking of you, and praying for your safe passage through these times.
peace.
tai


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