Posted by Dena on July 6, 2004, at 14:29:28
Dear Rayww -
You asked me to elaborate on the other board I've been spending time on - the one that's aided and abbetted my healing in a wonderful way.
Hmmm... should I do so here?
A bit of background: for 17 of the 18 years of my marriage, my affection, desire and libido toward my husband had been, in a word, DEAD. We sought counseling, prayer, ministry, you name it. Nothing broke through.
I knew that God wanted to bless us with a powerful, fulfilling and pleasurable intimate relationship, but I felt hindered from giving and receiving in an intimate way. Something was clearly wrong, though I didn't know what.
My husband never lost his love or desire for me, and thus he sufferred greatly over the years, with me regularly rejecting him on all levels. We both had resigned to a marriage of commitment, but no passion. My husband, to his credit, loves God and remained faithful to me, despite many temptations to meet his needs elsewhere.
Just over 7 weeks ago, God miraculously healed my marriage. He awakened my love and desire for my husband, literally overnight (He may well have been working "behind the scenes" for however long, but my awareness of the healing was overnight).
I am blown away by this transformation. I am in awe of God's ability to take a dead thing and bring it gloriously to life. I'm in love with my husband, like never before; I adore him; he's my best friend and soulmate - things I thought I'd never have in this life! Things he'd given up experiencing with his wife. God has sooooooo blessed us!
I cannot keep my hands off the man - after 17 years of thinking I could live without him! It's not just in the sexual realm - we're praying together, supporting each other, laughing together, having fun together, just being silly... standing together against some difficult situations in our lives.
I'm so grateful to God for what He's done for us! God is so great! His timing is incredible! I'm so blessed...
As for the "other website", it's a discussion group focused on sharing the joys and struggles of Christian marital intimacy. Very Christian, very scientific, and very explicit, but in a delightfully real way.
I'll share it with anyone who's interested, but only if you ask.
Shalom, Dena
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