Posted by evercare on December 31, 2003, at 11:11:09
I have felt exactly what you are. I grew up hoping i would be killed. A part of me still wants that, then i remind myself that the reason i am not dead already is because he has a great plan for me. I still wish that he didn't so i can get away from the torture of the day. But who am i to tell God what to do. Another thing that keeps me alive is my amazing friend and boyfriend. He is a blessing from God and he would be devastated if i left him. i have two reasons to live. you just have to LOOK for them. i know how hard it is to be optimistic or think nondestructively, but once you try and pray, God will help you. Remember that the weaker you are, the stronger He is. That is a wonderful thing to remember.
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