Posted by rayww on September 7, 2003, at 8:58:28
In reply to Re: Why is it so hard for non-bipolars to get this? » rayww, posted by habbyshabit on September 7, 2003, at 5:40:31
Let's examine this then. Is it difficult for those with bipolar disorder to be consistant? To develop routines? How about to touch something that has a negative emotional stigma attached to it? Do those with bipolar disorder react to triggers and then fly off somewhere? Do they reside mostly in the extremes? Do they feel more deeply and see what isn't obvious? When they get in the (extreme) mood to clean do they keep cleaning and cleaning, not knowing when to stop? Do they say "yes" to a project and break themselves doing it, then leave the traces behind for months, not able to break through the emotional barrior to start another, (or complete the last)? When they crash do they spiral down into unknown frightful territory? Do they "wait" for the mania and then channel it toward whatever project is needed, then if the mania subsides, live with the unfinished mess till the next episode? Are they perfectionists who cannot accept anything less than, yet never achieve it? Do they put certain important things, like "family" on hold till they work it out? Do they become obsessed with one thing at a time, with blinders to all else? When faith in self is destroyed, do they seek the end?
I love life. I love the outer limit arena of my mind. I love my family, my home, my situation in life. I love my religion and all opportunities enjoyed through it. I love God. I have no complaints. But the life I live in my disorder is not my reality. Some people keep their disorder very well hidden. Others wear it on the outside. Sometimes things get so out of control.
Freak, does anyone identify with this sheesh or is it all normal? What is normal anyway? Is there any such thing?
I prefer to think of "it" as a gift, that those with a disorder are a touch higher than normal, not better than, as all are equal, higher than, which can be a good thing.
Equal - - - meaning simply no one person should consider themselves better than someone else. There is no such hope as equal privilege for all. Even in our family we taught that each one is different, and would be treated uniquely different, that just because one child got something did not mean the rest were entitled to the same thing, but their turn would come around. Same principle goes to equality.
I'm rambling on threads here, off topic again, sorry, gotta go - - - church, family dinner, get ready.
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