Posted by Racer on May 8, 2006, at 1:33:39
I feel half awake all the time from the damn meds, I feel trapped at home, and I feel fatter than a hippopotamus. Every so often, I get a flash of clarity, and remember that I should be working towards healthy, not thin, but that's rare. Mostly, I would give nearly anything to be thin.
We're trying to get pregnant, and that's making all this harder in a lot of ways. Part of me says eat, so that there's better chance of getting pregnant. Mostly, though -- I would give nearly anything to be thin. I find myself thinking things like, "If I knew for sure that I could get pregnant by doing it, I would eat right." But then I get other, less healthy thoughts.
I don't know. I hate being this size. I can't stand it, and hate it, and would give nearly anything to be thin again.
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