Posted by Maxime on February 10, 2006, at 12:41:22
In reply to Because you're in pain?, posted by Racer on February 10, 2006, at 12:20:12
Thanks Racer. I think I am in self-destruction mode. When I was fired from my job in September my ED became much worse. I definately use it to cope.
I was hooked on laxies before and was able to stop. It was hard, but I did it. I think reminding myself that it doesn't help lose weight would help me stop using it. I don't know.
As for the ephedra, I can't give it up. It really does help me lose weight. Plus it gives me a high like dexedrine did. I am so down all the time, that feeling speedy is a welcomed relief.
My hospital stay was a disaster. It truly was. I lost 15 pounds in the hospital. No one cared if I ate or not (I wasn't on an ED unit). Now I am addicted to losing weight once again.
Thanks for your empathy. :-)
Maxime
> Maxie, I wish there were something we could do right here and right now to help with this. And you know -- what you're going through sounds so much like what I went through at that agency that did so much damage, it's terrible to think that *this* is what passes for mental health care in some instances. Makes me feel an extra bond with you, though.
>
> Anyway, is there anything you can think of that would help you stop? You already know, rationally, why you don't want to do this, so what can you do to shift that from your rational side to your visceral side? How can you get it from your brain to your gut? Would visualizing the sort of damage you're doing to your body help? Or visualizing what you would look like in five years from the damage you're doing to yourself through these pills? What about imagining how bloated and fat you'd look from them? They don't actually help you lose weight, and losing weight doesn't go well with trying to get over an ED.
>
> Maybe see if you could find something to distract you? I'll b-mail you what's helping me right now, because there is something helping a bit right now.
>
> I'm sorry you're feeling the need to do this, and I'm so very sorry that the hospital wasn't helpful. Grrr.
poster:Maxime
thread:607615
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/eating/20051009/msgs/608324.html