Posted by Racer on August 16, 2005, at 21:00:09
I'm more depressed the past week or so, and I know it's showing up in my eating. The good news, from my point of view, is that I'm getting good at restricting again, but that's not supposed to be the goal, you know? I'm torn, because this does feel better to me than eating according to my meal plan, but I also know that I'm voluntarily keeping myself sick, which I don't like so much.
Plus, I feel about the size of Gargantua right now. Huge belly, gigantic boobs, saddle bags on my thighs that I could pack for a week's vacation. Grrr.
Bad timing, too, because I leave town tomorrow, for Family Togetherness with my husband, my mother, and my aunt. Great combination -- thank goodness my husband sticks up for me, because my aunt is a human steamroller when it comes to boundaries. She's as likely as not to start in on what or how much I'm eating, despite anything anyone says to her.
I'm just not in a good space, angry, frustrated, miserable, depressed, and wanting to get this damn weight off me.
poster:Racer
thread:542714
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