Posted by Justherself54 on December 27, 2004, at 20:20:22
I have suffered from bouts of depression for over 20 years and have been treated with about every SSRI, tricyclids and MAOI's. I was only until I started treatment with a new pdoc that he diagnosed me as being bipolar so now I am on Paxil, Lamictal, ritalin, with clonazapam and Zoplicone at bed. I also suffer very badly from fibromyalgia. I know if I lost the 60 extra pounds I am now carrying would help greatly with the fibro.
For the last six months, I have been living on nothing and I mean nothing but high fat sweets. I have no desire to put a healthy thing in my mouth. I have lost any desire for meat or veggies but do occasionaly eat fruit (cause it's sweet). I am really concerned about the effects of this on my health and I would hate to see what my cholesterol is at now.
I'm very serious when I say I have put nothing good for me in my system for a long time.
I am currently trying to get back to my career and am working 3 days a week but still feel very fragile. To get back to full time I would have to move back to where my office is and take over the responsibility of running an office again. I still can't handle very much stress and still am having bouts of break through depression and the binge eating no doubt is contributing to this. I think my pdoc is more concerned about getting my mood stable as I am so medication sensitive and also have the problem of meds pooping out on me. I even had ECT which didn't work. He was very concerned about that so we are still "tweaking" my meds.
I am wondering if the stress of thinking of going back to work may be triggering the binge eating. We still haven't made the decision if I will even be able to return on a full time basis or at all.
I wonder that when a decision is finally made regarding work if the binge eating will cease. I am very afraid that the stress of working and relocating again (I came back to my home town when I was so ill) may cause me to relapse. I'm terrified of that because I don't know if I would make it through another depression like that again.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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