Posted by linkadge on August 7, 2005, at 4:57:25
In reply to Re: The link for DMT cures depression, posted by Declan on August 7, 2005, at 3:03:59
It was funny because I have never done any kind of psycadellic, but after sleep deprivation I notice a very profound sence of self. Some experiences like my LSD friend has described.
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When you are depressed, the world comes first and then you come second. After sleep deprivation, you come first, and the world comes second.
It shifts the ballance back to you.
But that shift of ballance usually comes with what I call a short psychotic epiphany. Where its like you are subjected to (all at once) the guilt of everything you have ever done wrong. Almost like God is showing you how you have been a bad person. At this point you feel more wreched than you have ever, almost like a short painfull psychic akathesia. Ususally like 3am. Maybe this corresponds to some kind of deep stage of sleep.
But shortly that condemned feeling slowly disolves, and you start to feel forgiven, absolved, redeemed! After this you are just so happy to be alive. It is almost as if the problem of your mood was not of this earth.
It is interesting because what I think is going on here is like a reseting/shifting of personal worth. After these experiences I can't help but stop basing my feelings of self worth on what the world determines. It is as if, after sleep deprivation, my self worth is more devine. You can see above your problems, even if they are not solved. They don't hit you. It is like you are floating through the clouds and looking at your problems from a distance. You are completely protected by a barrier, that lasts the whole night. You and your problems are two completely separate entities. You have transcended them for a while.
The next day is magic. Mystical but still serious. Almost like you were just born, but at the same time have been alive forever. Everything looks mystical. "Old fashoned" is a good way to discribe it. Otherworldly.
(sleep deprivation regulates C-fos and immediate early gene transcription similar to drugs like cocaine)
Sorry for blithering.Linkadge
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