Posted by sierrak on August 20, 2004, at 16:55:14
I'm new, wanted to say hi...I've learned a lot by reading the posts here over the past 2 days, thank you. I've been sick at home from effexor withdrawal : ( Yesterday was by far the worst, I think I'm on the mend now. Decided to discontinue with psych md's advice because of weird headaches. Have to see if they continue without the meds. However, I am not eager to go back on again because of these withdrawal symptoms!
I'm going to be trying some alternative methods for at least a little while. I've tried many psych drugs and still can't seem to reach some level of even occasional happiness. For years, it's been to the point that depression seems normal, and it's happiness that seems out of the ordinary. I don't even notice the depression that much because it just feels like normal to me, and then I take a depression test and I'm always surprised that my score is so bad, because I'm used to feeling like this. It's very discouraging!
The best I seem to get is the ability to function with a level of irritability and fatigue. Compared to not being able to function, functioning is good, I just find myself asking, isn't there something more? I'm tired of 'you just haven't found the right med.' Which may be true, but it just gets so old. I've also tried prozac, anafranil, wellbutrin, etc.
The MDD I have is of the agitated depression type and I'm trying B complex vitamins and holy basil for adrenal support, to start. Trying to start things slow in the hopes that if I find something that works, I'll be able to figure out what it was.
I've been on psych meds for 5 years, paxil for most of it and then effexor. Problems with depression for much longer than that. I'm anxious about transitioning off, not sure whether or not I'll be able to function without them and it's scary. I was on medical leave a few times before I got stabilized on meds. I might have to go back on them if I crash and burn, but I just decided to try something different for now.
That's my situation in a nutshell...thanks for being here.
poster:sierrak
thread:380059
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