Posted by SLS on January 3, 2011, at 20:41:22
In reply to Re: Phillipa - Say it ain't so. » SLS, posted by ou812 on January 3, 2011, at 18:36:42
> Scott, I have been observing for quite awhile and you seem to be the most level-headed and positive person that has stayed here.
> This board seems less of a mental support board but a playground for public floggings and stonings. Here you have admitted to a complete file worthy of FBI/IRS standards and it is "ok" but another posters "assumed" actions are "creepy" and warrant ostracizing.I will take what you have said here into consideration. Thank you for extending to me your observations and perspectives. I'm not sure that I would have submitted my post were I to allow myself more time to deliberate my response to this issue.
I do not have an FBI file on Phillipa. However, I could certainly produce one and publish it were that to be my goal. I have the information. It was all too easy to find given the right clues. Scary stuff. It was my intent to demonstrate how powerful can be the possession and exploitation of information. I think I was also trying to frighten Phillipa, just in case she has been doing what others have accused her of. It is a survival mechanism.
Given all of the chatter I see revolving around Phillipa, I am now fearful that she might cause me harm, regardless of her intentions. Again, it was a survival mechanism on my part. I would also feel very hurt if I were to discover that Phillipa had betrayed my confidence. I feel pretty stupid right now.
My previous post demonstrated the anger that such a betrayal would elicit in me. I was angry. I found my anger to be directed towards Phillipa, even though I had no evidence of her behaving dangerously. I think this indicates that I have been growing more suspicious of her as I continue to read the accounts of others regarding her behavior.
Anger can be very motivating. However, it can also influence perception and produce conclusions that are not necessarily reflective of the facts.
I am not attempting to make excuses for my behavior so much as I am offering possible explanations to others as I try to understand what may have precipitated my reactions to this upsetting issue.
I don't feel safe anymore with Phillipa.
This is not a happy moment for me.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
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