Posted by Fivefires on August 27, 2007, at 12:58:39
In reply to Before i get blocked i need to tell you something., posted by rjlockhart on August 26, 2007, at 16:17:05
> I said something to sam123 because he made me look bad, in reputation wise.
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> I got really unbalanced. He said something to me that was just, i dont know if i "misinterperted" what he said but now i look bad.
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> I misinterpret what people say alot and it makes me look bad. Now i have a bad reputation. See.....Why are there people here that down grade you and make you look bad?I recently said please join me in my trial of a medication, something like that, and I guess it was misinterpreted. I could see it after someone pointed it out to me. One could have thought I meant for someone to actually 'begin the same medication alongside me' when I said 'join me in my trial' (something like that) and truly meant just follow the thread w/ me for support.
> And the next thing is im the freaking person who looks bad on this site!
When I'm upset, it's hard to post correctly and I've stuck my foot in my mouth, and then the focus goes from the issue, to me! :(
> No one here cares about me at all.That's what I was feeling and thinking too, rj, but remember, 'things are not always as they seem', and, I care a lot about you. Chances are real slim I'm alone.
> Why am i getting so hostile and defensive, is because i think people are turning there back on me and just bashing me.>If you're thinking the place you find the most comfort is being taken from you, or the people you've trusted the most are not there for you the way you need them to be, I'd think it would be natural to feel this way.
> So, im sorry, and i feel bad. For what i said.
No shame in this. Instead, courage.
> But can someone tell me why people do this to me here? or is it my perception?
Hopefully, they may not understand completely, or, maybe there are other issues (Maybe issues which don't involve you.) involved of which you are not aware. It's hard to remember this when you're fearing abandonment. We go on the premise that all human beings are basically good, but we know this is questionable. All you can do is try to be your own best person.
> Thanks
> RjI feel like I should be saying, Thanks!
Butt, (Why do I like doing that?) you're welcome.
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