Posted by Jost on September 5, 2006, at 11:24:29
In reply to Re: Extraction » Alexus, posted by Dinah on September 5, 2006, at 9:10:05
Hi, Dinah.
I think it was really great that you posted that.
I'm relatively new here, but not so new as not to have experience-based ideas about what deputies "are," which I didn't during our last discussion.
(I didn't realize there were deputies for a long time, which you, as a deputy, might not know--and it took a while to know who the deputies were, and then to observe what role they had, etc.)
I see Bob as an authority figure, although an absent one-- one whom I don't have much connection to, really. Although once or twice, I felt strongly that someone needed to address a situation, and no one did-- I otherwise haven't counted him as a presence here.
I think of you (Dinah), gg, and Auntie Mel as the ones with the right to step in-- although as a group you've been somewhat distant.. Your presence, to me, is somewhat attenuated, both as deputies and posters.
I personally would like the presence of all three of you -- and be happy if you were more involved-- But, as posters, you have no obliation to be self-revealing, or responsive. And as deputies, you know what your responsibilities are, so I've respected your decisions to intervene or not. Some situations have been difficult, and I've entirely understood your not taking more active roles.
At those moment, I have thought it unfortunate that Bob wasn't in residence, but vacations and busy practices being what they are--- I've been grateful that he has the site, even if it's an untended garden.
Possible Alexus hasn't imagined why someone would volunteer to be a deputy, or what it feels like to be one. It's easy not to think about it, if you're upset about specific things that have been done-- which is often a personal point of view-- entirely understandable-- but which can focus one's vision.
If I volunteered (and I hasten to assure all that that is in the subjunctive mood, just to clarify)-- but I know that if I did, it wouldn't be to block people or to have "power"-- or to be an "insider"-- it would be because I wanted to contribute something to this place. It might be that some admin matter had disturbed me-- but I can't imagine anyone here volunteering out of a delight in blocking others.
I have to leave, so I might say more later.
Alexus, would you think about what it would be like if you were a deputy? I'd be interested in how that would feel to you-- why you might do it, what feelings it would evoke, or how it would change your sense of yourself here, if it would.
(I'm not saying it would-- I'm asking myself the same questions, and of course it's different for different people- but it's a question.)
Jost
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