Posted by llrrrpp on June 3, 2006, at 13:01:37
In reply to You're requesting incivility? ;~} (nm) » llrrrpp, posted by crazy teresa on June 3, 2006, at 12:40:52
Given that punishment reinforces and supports my notion of myself as a bad person, as a person unworthy of happiness or satisfaction.
Given that this part of me is prominent, and real, and often inescapable, why should it be denied support?
This part of me finds civility repugnant and offensive.
This part of me finds hugs unbearable.
This part of me hates to hear people say nice things about me.
This part of me likes pain, and is attracted to suicide.
Yes, this part of me is the crazy part.
Why does the crazy part have to suffer all the kindnesses of babble?
Why does the crazy me have to be offended right and left by ((hugs)) and well-wishes and treacle?
The crazy me has been strongly tempted to lash out at nice babblers with offensive remarks, simply to be punished and blocked.
A punishment board would spare nice babblers from such misdirected expressions of inner pain and dispair.
A punishment board would satisfy the need for mortification, perhaps to the degree of removing the urge for self-injury and self-murder. Or, perhaps it would provide support and remove the conflict that exists when we make such choices.
We could protect it well "Abandon all hope, ye who enter here" Well, many of us have abandoned all hope. And why not? Why shouldn't we. It's selfish, to be sure, but "civility" says that our needs are less important than others?
-llrrrpp
der Geistesgestoerte
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