Posted by malthus on September 3, 2004, at 13:57:31
In reply to Re: Being Compassionate » Dr. Bob, posted by Atticus on September 2, 2004, at 18:00:26
Hi Atticus:
I have read the evolution of this thread and understand fully why you are taking a break from posting. I am heavyhearted that you are feeling worse than you did before your hospitalization. I had a strange feeling of deja-vu about you when I sat down to write this and don't fully understand it. I know from my experiences with depression (and you have mentioned this before) about the mask that has to be put on to get through the day when feeling utterly slaughtered inside. And to make matters worse the whole business of protecting family and friends is absolutely draining.
I realize that the following may be "breaking the rules" but I don't give a #*@~ (rhymes with "cram".): If you feel like communicating with me please, please e-mail me:
malthusdog@yahoo.com I need to know you are not thinking about anything "shiny". I've had to force back unpleasant images in the past month of my car impacting a large tree but starting back on Zyprexa has enabled me to push them down although I've gained 10 lbs. yuk >:( ! I wonder if pushing them down with medication is the best way to go. I've read a lot about how ecstasy therapy with a qualified professional (I've never taken it) has helped many people with depression but I guess the images of brain cells being killed (doesn't alcohol do this as well with absolutely no therapeutic effect?) has been a deterrent. I'm going to post this over on Writing in case you are not checking this particular thread anymore (don't blame you.)malthus who will not appear sad-faced or serious when she knows Atticus is well
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