Posted by mashogr8 on July 12, 2002, at 22:06:28
In reply to Re: Some of you may have the best intentions...., posted by hrtlm on July 12, 2002, at 18:03:57
I have tried to reply three times to this post. However, every time I don't change URLs my server thinks I've gone away and disconnects me. I am in a quandry; maybe I should post in chapters but I'd rather not.
Having been a longtime lurker and inconsistent poster in '99, I have again, found the need for solace usually found here. After much trouble trying to find this site when it was off the net for awhile and then the hassle of trying to comprehend directions to register and then confirm apparantly within a certain time period, I have finally gotten back.
I need this place but it has changed. It's chaotic and, somehow scary and in a way hateful. I don't need that. No matter how much turmoil all of us are in, there is still a peace among us that's supposed to invite a person to dump any thought, good, bad or ugly. I don't feel the real caring that I experienced before.
All I want is someone to hold my hand through the words on this URL -- to tell me the night or especially the day will end. I will not fall apart. I do love, I just don't feel it and people do love me. I want to see others offer that to others. But that seems so impossible now. It's so loud and clear the negativity could never be disguised.
I would add my support to those posts above, especially hrtml. I respectfully listened to the other side. I disagree with the "inability" (I'm afraid that that is going to be a volatile word and I don't mean to trigger another explosion. I just don't know a benign word to use) to give up when the "authority" figure, the one who owns the structure states that after listening toyour ideas, he chooses to respond the way he has. The rules are there. God, I didnt mean to say all that. Please,please agree to disagree and change the tenor of the board. I think i'm being a little selfish, but my world is cold and now this place is turning into the real world. It no longer feels like a sanctuary.
MA
poster:mashogr8
thread:6255
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20020627/msgs/6268.html