Posted by trouble on February 9, 2002, at 1:24:51
In reply to Re: PB hindering recovery ?, posted by Dr. Bob on February 6, 2002, at 2:42:17
Goodness gracious, and I thought I was trouble. Hindering recovery indeed. I take it you sit around alot, thinking up provocative questions. Interesting pastime.
Ok, I'll fess up: The first couple days that PB came into my life I spent 6-8 hours at a time reading the archives. Then when I'd go out into the world I interacted w/ people as if they were PB members. Totally unbuttoned, talking the talk, if you take my meaning. People reacted w/ unvarnished panic.
So now after spending a lot of time in the community I pointedly remind myself before leaving the house that I need to shift gears, b/c the world is a place of commerce and industry, clock-watching and ordinary reality, and while I'm not overjoyed about that, I don't have to fight it as much either.
Moreover, I don't need to compulsively try to force the world into validating me b/c now I have a place of belonging, so I can be more at ease outside, I don't have something to prove. This has been a major lifelong problem for me, far from being healed, but markedly ameliorated.My own psychologist already sees a + change in me since being on PB, now that I no longer have to run around "casting pearls before swine."
So, in my opinion this site is a Godsend, but I could misuse it too in a self-destructive "us against the world" kind of way. But I think the caliber of struggle,sincerity and well-wishing on the part of the others would keep me from going there. Also Dr. Bob is a formidable father figure.
I've been meaning to share something like this for days, thanks for giving me an opportunity.
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