Posted by allisonm on December 9, 2000, at 19:17:12
In reply to Re: Getting lost » allisonm, posted by Greg on December 9, 2000, at 13:40:53
Hi Greg,
This probably will sound stupid, but I think part of my problem is that my bookmarks are all together and I am mouseless. If I don't drag my finger down the pad far/quick enough, I end up somewhere else and if I didn't notice, I start going through the board again only to stop and think "wasn't I just here?"
Thanks for asking. I dunno. I've started exercising again, after dogged prodding recently by my pdoc. I have loathed being at work lately, feeling trapped, trying to figure where else I could work, but it feels like too much work to look. I have always been hyper self-critical, but often lately I have felt paranoid, like maybe my bosses think I'm not doing a good job either.
Still trying to determine what's normal feeling and what is influenced by depression. I think the Neurontin is working, but I don't know whether it is enough. I'm at 400mg/day of Wellbutrin, but only at 800mg/day for the Neurontin, so I guess there is room for more. I am able to laugh and be silly more than I have in a very long time, though, which feels good when it happens.
It doesn't help that the holidays are upon us. I don't have anyone close to celebrate them with anymore, so I go back and forth about whether to celebrate them at all. The last two years I stubbornly did what I always had when my husband and mother were here (no kids). This year I have spurts of enthusiasm, then I wonder what the point is. Why bother? It all feels like too much work. I've simplified things this year, but often it still feels like too much work.
How's the Neurontin working for you?
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