Posted by Racer on May 8, 2004, at 12:10:35
In reply to Re: Blimp inducer, posted by SLS on May 8, 2004, at 10:26:21
Well, what would I want to eat? Pepperoni pizza is the first thing to come to mind, with a couple of glasses of red wine. Sour cream in almost everything -- a staple of hungarian cooking -- and liverwurst, hard cheeses, a couple of beers with friends. You know, most of the things that are listed as Do Not Eat.
The bigger issue, though, is the lack of support. The doctor doesn't even seem to care what's going on with me. I get my five minutes per month, and if something goes wrong in between -- well, best of luck, duckie, and it's only because she's hypervigilant anyway. He doesn't even try to listen.
Yes, I'm really and truly spooked out of my skin by drugs and doctors at this point. But I still feel as though a little bit of hand holding through the starting process would be enough to make it work, you know? Instead, what happens? How am I supposed to tell him if Remeron doesn't work? I'm somehow supposed to get past my fears enough to say that it's not working -- if it doesn't -- when he's already stated that he's just going to make it worse? Somehow, that isn't exactly reassuring.
And I think the dietary restrictions are more of a psychological block, both because I feel as if everyone involved is telling me to give up more and more and more of my life without anything to replace it with, and because food is about the only comfort I have in my life. It's like, "OK, we've made you give up everything else, so now give up that one last thing, and maybe then we'll make life bearable for you." So, the restrictions themselves are probably less of an issue than the psychological baggage and the lack of support. (I'm 5'9", and I weight 113#. I already restrict my eating. It wouldn't be that different, you know? It's just that the special treats I give myself -- like pepperoni pizza -- wouldn't be allowed anymore. No special treats anymore would be hard to take.)
Thanks for speaking up, though. I know you're in a similar boat, and so I know you do havea good idea how it feels.
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