Posted by Racer on March 19, 2004, at 0:39:39
In reply to Re: Question about insight or lack thereof » Racer, posted by shar on March 19, 2004, at 0:11:04
Do I still have an eating disorder? That's a really hard question to answer. I can tell you that I still have a distorted body image, that much I 'know', but I feel as if I'm eating a lot, and I feel as if I'm fatter than I was. My scale doesn't seem to show it, and -- while I feel about 20# heavier than I did last month, zenhussy told me she thought I'd lost about 10# in the last two weeks. So, I can't tell if I still have an eating disorder or not. (Besides, Dr EyeCandy says I never had an eating disorder. He's the expert, right? -- some of coral's sarcasm coming out there, eh?)
Does it go away with the right medication? Kinda. The distorted body image doesn't really go away, but its importance in my life diminishes. The ADs I've been on have put so much weight on me, that trying to fight my way to a reasonable (ie: very low) weight doesn't seem worth the effort. And I stop exercising, too, when I'm adequately medicated. Whoops! I don't stop getting exercise, but I stop devoting three hours per day to the endeavor of 'trying to get to a reasonable weight'.
Again, this is probably a sign of my lack of insight, but it really seems to me that if I keep my weight above a critical point, I don't have the same compulsions to restrict food or exercise frantically. Either I'm a poster child for Set Point weight theories, or at that critical point I feel so humongous I just can't make myself care. Know what I mean?
Thanks, shar. I know that you're going through a rough patch, and I wish I could offer you as much as you've offered me. Good luck go with you, to keep company with my warmest wishes.
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