Posted by Racer on January 20, 2004, at 13:55:12
Today, my T brought up something very much like your Shame Thread! She asked what I was afraid of, and it suddenly came to me that I associate fear with something very specific. I go straight back to being a kid, hiding behind the love seat, while my mother had tantrums, listenting to all the bad things she said about me. For me, Fear=All Those Things Being True, which in turn equals me being unworthy of love, approval, support, validation, justification, respect, or even oxygen. And guess what? I'm afraid a lot.
What do you think? Does that have anything to do with my depression? (<<attempt at a joke...)
Anyway, I think your post primed the pump, so that came much more easily than it would have otherwise. Thank you.
Also, to you, Shar, and to anyone else reading, thank you for everything you do and type here, because when I'm really in need, this really is one of the first places I come for help. I guess you guys know that already, but it's still nice to be thanked. Thank you for being here, and making it a safe and supportive place.
poster:Racer
thread:303303
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