Posted by NikkiT2 on November 28, 2003, at 17:22:43
In reply to Re: Happy Horrordays, Everyone! » Rach, posted by shar on November 28, 2003, at 14:36:08
I emailed a list of stuff I wanted (ranging from £3 for £40) to all my family!! *lmao* Cheeky maybe, but this year, theres stuff I *need* aswel as want! I'm skint, so need cristmas to cover all my DVD and CD's for the year!!
But, I just want it over. Too much money needing to be spent (I got a credit card *sighs* I'm gonna get in trouble again).. family not understanding enough for me to scrimp on them (oh, such a materialistic family), and too many people to fit in and visit.
But this one friend keeps sending me presents in the post.. Its very sweet of her, but I can't afford to reciprocate.. So I feel obliged to buy her something.. which mean I have to buy for the third friend in our trio.. (and I don't even class them friends, cos they just suck off me and never give support back)..
And my nearest shopping is Oxford Street.. which is busiest shopping street in whole of UK.. Even think about it starts the panic.. but I have to face it to buy presents.. else no one gets anything.. Too late to do it online now.No one has invited us for Christmas day, so its just me and J, alone. We're going down to mums the weekend before, and J is coming home on Sunday, but I have to stay till Wednesday as its my Uncles 60th Birthday on 23rd..Plus visiting my Gran who will spend 2 hours making me feel guilty for being a useless grand daughter. Then I'm borrowing mums car for the Christmas period so we can visit people (half the trains in country are down for the entire period!! great idea!), and I get to drive 200 miles home on christmas eve!! Great! So, Christmas Day alone, Boxing day drive to J's brothers (3 hour drive - alot when you barely drive all year) and home that night. Then weekend alone, then up to J's mum for 2 days. Then new Years just the two of us. Then drive mums car home!!
I just can't be bothered with it all this year. Plus, J goes away for a week, to the US for a conference next Saturday, and I am trying SO hard not to think about it. All my insecurities are flooding to the surface, but I know I mustn't let them show.
Wake me up when its January!!
God.. hadn't realised I had moaned quite so much!!
Nikki xx
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