Posted by stjames on August 17, 2003, at 20:04:56
In reply to Re: Posting in public places and cookies, posted by stjames on August 17, 2003, at 19:06:46
> > He was picked up last week as he broke probation
> > & was on a lam (I did not know this) and will be in the big house
> > for quite some time. In a wonderful twist of fate,
> > his panicked roommate asked me to take over his share in the house. So now I no longer have a 1.5 hour commute to work (each way) and my rent is less !!! The last 2.5 years have been very hard, as i am on the road 3 hours so i felt like I was working 12 hrs a day. With this expence i was trapped as I could not save first and last to move. The lack of sleep and stress has been slowly increasing my depression a little every day & I have had several minor breakdowns & was headed for a major one. Whew!
>
> bYou may remember I posted here about "did I do the right thing" a while back; I had decided to end a friendship. Well I didn't. This is the same person
as above. I really lack tech friends who like to spend hours talking tech. I'm a network admin and he was a programmer, so there we an intresting flow on info. We each knew enough about what the
other did to learn from each other.So about 4 weeks ago, on my 1.5 hour commute, a bolder fell off the mesa and I had no choice but to center line it, as I was too colse to it to swerve. I was going 60 and would of sent it under a wheel and could of flipped the car. The boulder took out the tranny and clutch; ripped up everthing under my 1 yr old new car. So I was stuck staying at my ex-friends house.
Things were going OK till 3 of us went out to eat.
I was feeling crummy, as i was off my meds for a day or so. The other 2 guys went through 2 pitchers of beer and spent 3 hours ragging my work. Primarly because we fired one casue he showed up to work not just stoned, but blasted. Then he
spammed our users. Then he did some web dev for a web customer of ours and wrote a buggy script that wiped out 500 web pages on our server by creating
a 20 gig log file ! So we banned him and he hates my work. I tried first to move the conversation another way, then protested. After 3 hours of this no one was noticing I was crying and shaking.So I stepped outside and had a breakdown. Cognative thearpy thought me to only worry out if I would loose a place to live, friends, food, and a way to make money. I was so freaked because I knew I was about to cause a public scean & would had no place to stay that night. I clamed myself and realized i had lots of friends in town to stay with. So I went back inside and let them have it.
I cleared out the bar and then we left.I had no meds to cause sleep but I did my best.
At 2 AM, my friend woke me up to offer me meth and to borrow my bic to smoke it. This happened several times during the night. I used to bang speed 20 yrs ago so this is NOT the way to say "I'm sorry". While I am secure in never doing Meth again it was just the wrong thing to do to me.
A loud party continued all night and I got no sleep.Got to work and had another crying jag. Work let me go early and I relocated to another firends house. Work was kind to pay me the full 40 hrs that week !
4 days leter my ex-friends roommate calls me to say
the cops showed up at the complex and my ex-firend stuck his head out to see what was up and got questioned. Had all of this mess not happened I would of been there and got taken in, too. I still have a few tickets for 3 years ago when I hit the Elk (that jumped in front of my car) and I was fourced to drive an unsafe car with faulty headlights for a year till I was working and could get another.So I have been very lucky here. The fates are with me and the wind at by back. I ignored my gut and continued to hang with this person till fate cast it's hand and got me out of there b4 the bust and then delivered his roommate to me on a platter.
i could not ask for a better roommate, he is never here !
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