Posted by shar on July 19, 2003, at 10:53:57
In reply to Re: something to look forward to, posted by Racer on July 18, 2003, at 23:09:40
I like Noa's idea of having to call a day good if there is one, even a little bitty one, good thing about it. It's a perspective someone like me can use because it's so hard to see anything good most of the time. Now, whether I'll be able to implement it successfully is another question....
The breast lump thing...I had a lump a few years ago, and I didn't get really scared and panicked either for some reason. I was anxious, but not like some people I've seen (mainly on made-for-TV movies, I have to confess). They did a biopsy--showed up at the hospital at 8 a.m., no coffee, got into surgery at noon with a raging caffeine withdrawal headache and nicotene withdrawal head and body ache. I'm not doing it their way anymore. While they had parked me in front of a room to get yet another mammogram before the surgery, they went away for a long time, so I went looking for the smoking section (in paper gown and booties). It was outside, it had rained a while before, it was muddy--not a good thing for paper booties. I bummed a smoke and stood there smoking it, then finished and went back inside (making little muddy bootie prints).
Nobody knew I'd left, no problem til in the operating room, on the table, laying in the crucifix position, I said if there is a sterile field here, you may want to change my booties because they have dirt on them.
The biopsy was negative. The last mammogram I had (about 3 years ago) they said they found another lump they want to keep an eye on and come back in 6 months, then I lost my job, insurance, etc.
So, I know what you mean when you say you don't feel shocked and horrified. It's a lot to take in along with everything else going on.
And, if test results pique your interest enough to keep you here another week, that's a good thing. (from my perspective)
Take care,
Sharyn
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