Posted by Racer on July 6, 2003, at 21:10:08
In reply to I can't tell if it's getting better or worse, posted by Racer on July 6, 2003, at 13:43:51
It's getting worse.
A little while ago, I got another email from my lover's widow. She won't let it go. I've had emails and telephone calls from people I know and people I don't know, some saying just the things that hurt me most, some warning me, some just telling me to burn in hell. One, from someone who was supposed to be my friend, saying she couldn't see me anymore because of this, but I should let her know where I kept my horses so that she could warn the widow who wanted to keep track of me so that she'd never go to a barn I was at and run into me. This latest email came just after another telephone call from an unlisted number that hung up as soon as I answered.
I've told my husband that I just can't keep going. I don't want to live anymore, with nothing but more of the same that I've been trying to get through these last years, with this on top of it. I tried, my god how I've tried! It's not working, I'll never get anywhere, and I can't keep trying. I'm too damn tired.
Please excuse the bad word, Dr Bob. Guess I could have *ed it, but it's the only word I know.
poster:Racer
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