Posted by Noa on January 4, 2003, at 8:58:48
In reply to Re: Sigh..., posted by harry b. on January 3, 2003, at 22:53:37
I have days like that too--many days like that. Where I am a total slug, never out of pj's sleep too much, just have no energy, etc.
Sounds like you are deeply affected by the disappointment when you are waiting for correspondence that doesn't come fast enough. I know this sounds awful pat (and certainly "easier said than done"), but are there things you can do to not have your whole day depend on hearing back from these people--ie, not psychologically "sitting by the phone" so to speak? ie, plan some other things that are enjoyable. I know, like I said, easier said than done. COming from me, the weekend hermit who berates herself all day for not getting up, dressed, and out, who tells herself, "well, if you aren't going to get to the chore kind of stuff that is bogging you down, at least go out and do something fun", but then nothing seems appealing. Advice from this corner--trite, cliche, pat, but I had to offer it anyway, Harry.
As for my work, I am grateful that I can function there. Although I do have my moments. Sometimes, if something angers me at work, that can really hijack my mood and my day. I cry easily, so if I am having a difficult conversation with a boss, anything that feels "unfair" to me or like I'm being misjudged, I start crying. I can't help it. I feel foolish, but I can't help it. OR even if I hold it together, often I will get back to my office, and close the door and then burst into tears and be unable to get anything productive done.
Also, often there is a difference in how well I function depending on the type of work. Things that require my initiative, and organization and planning, independent sorts of tasks, etc., are often hard for me and if I am depressed, especially so, while things that are more structured, or involve responding to someone else's initiative, or go to something scheduled, (ie, things that don't take as much initiative) are easier for me , and especially when I'm depressed.
Hang in there, Harry. Are you looking into med adjustments with the pdoc?
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