Posted by noa on December 26, 2002, at 19:03:52
In reply to Re: Grampa Greg! » noa, posted by Greg on December 26, 2002, at 18:03:56
Hey, Greg. I bet you are a wonderful grandparent (and way hipper than mine were!)
I'm "eh" if you know what I mean. In general I've been pretty good, but the last few weeks I've been a bit down. Being off from work these past few days has meant lack of structure, and you know what that means--total vegging, which can be very pathalogical in my case. I feel so unmotivated. I had a list of things that had to get done, and aren't, of course, and then when I tell myself, well, if you aren't going to do them, at least go out and do something fun, but I can't think of anything I care to do!
I'll be forced off my duff tomorrow morning, as I am traveling. Fortunately I have a plane to catch, because if it were a road trip, I might never get going (I once went about 20 miles and turned around and went back home and just bagged the trip). But there is stuff to do before going.
I will probably be doing the mad dash at the last minute--I cannot be motivated without that last minute adrenyline attack I think (complete with agitation and anger at self for procrastinating, etc.).
I have heard this referred to as the "Churchill Syndrome" so I know I'm in good company, but somehow I have a feeling Churchill actualy got a lot more done than I do! Well, we KNOW he did--we only need start with his, what--6-volume book? Aside from heading up a major superpower during some, shall we say, "busy" times during the last century?
While my biggest accomplishments of late are watching the Today show's three hours of repetetive filler fluff, if I'm up that early (what happened to that show anyway!?), once in a while managing to microwave something edible to go with my medications, and occassionally (in thousands of tries) completing the 99 square minesweeper in under 140 seconds.
I think I have totally rewired my brain to serve the inane purpose of playing inane computer games. Sometimes, when I get in bed at night I see little minesweeper squares opening under my eyelids.
Ramble, ramble, ramble. You get the picture (I'll be nice and save the details about the effects of these three days of total slothdom on one's personal presentation).
Am I looking forward to my trip? Yes, I guess I am, but my mood is such that I can't get enthusiastic about anything. Just going to visit the family, which is overdue. Like I said, it will get me out of the house and I'll have to get up and get dressed every day for the rest of my time off, and there will be people with whom to socialize without much effort. Well, come to think of it, the issue of effort is sometimes up to interpretation, with the folks' hearing, eyesight and cognitive velocity being factors, you know, but they will be handy social partners anyway. Besides, there will also be the other two generations around much of the time, even if not quite as handy (in the same house).
Enjoy your holiday and let's hope for a better new year this time around.
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