Posted by Racer on December 18, 2002, at 15:11:31
Howdy. I'm getting off the dratted drugs. It's horrible, lots of really nasty withdrawal problems. But I have been hopeful up until today. Today I am ready to throw it all away, give up, go back to bed, whatever.
After months of feeling progressively lousy, as I tapered down, I finally stopped the Effexor XR entirely just before Thanksgiving. (Mind you, I'd been tapering since May -- only accidental that it took until the holidays to come to the end...) The sky fell on top of me, and my head was horrible until the doctor started me on Prozac to get through the withdrawal. (other stuff too: one side effect of withdrawal for me was allergic reactions to familiar things: shampoo, moisturizer, etc. AND I got poison oak which lasted for over a month before I started the prozac: gone within days.)
Anyway, it's been storming here in California, and I just totally screwed up business wise: forgot to confirm with at least one of my students that there would be no lessons today. I'm afraid to answer my telephone or to check messages. It's not that this is such a terrible thing, just that it's one more thing I've screwed up. It's almost the least of it, but it's too much for me to add to the stack, you know?
I'm trying not to let this stuff get to me, but add it to the sick stomach and the achy breaky head from the withdrawal, and I'm so afraid of depression creeping back in!
Can someone pat me on the head or something?
poster:Racer
thread:814
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/2000/20020724/msgs/814.html