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Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:06:07
so...
i've only gone on (and on and on) about how i can't play this on my computer:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Might_and_Magic_VI:_The_Mandate_of_Heaven
and now they have released X on mac. only my mac doesn't meet graphics requirements! wah! no fair!!!!!!!!!
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:36:34
In reply to might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:06:07
these could help...
i don't know why i have this thing for blue shoes, at the moment...
probably i should go for mostly black... my current sneakers are the first nikes i've had... used to go for new balance before... these ones are mostly grey with a pink sole and light blue laces. they have worn in quite comfy so i think i might get some new nikes... i like to wear... black mostly. bold colours usually. so the pink laces clash with anything red and the blue laces clash with anything blue... sigh. i've given up caring...
but i suppose i could get black with red accent or...
thoughts?
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:38:41
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:36:34
purply-blue...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:44:31
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:36:34
ooh. they are reflective those last ones... maybe not so good with jeans, heh.
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:46:25
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:44:31
sigh. you know you've gotten old (or something) when you've given up caring...
the guys ones are better blue colours... but they don't make the guys shoes small enough...
i find it funny how nike thinks that bags need some come with 'mens' and 'women's' labels on them.
wtf.
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:53:08
In reply to might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:06:07
http://www.kixpress.com/kixpressebay/images/products/nk580393015/01.jpg
probably these then.
i guess i'll need to go try them on... sigh.
Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:54:23
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:53:08
and there is always red...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:01:45
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:54:23
http://www.wearshoesstore.com/mens-dr-martens-1925-3eye-st-cap-shoe-cherry-red-rogue-p-2467/
sigh. that's what i want.
it would be weird to have a thing for guys shoes - right?
Posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:17:54
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:01:45
http://www.drmartens.com/us/Womens/Womens-Shoes/8065-MARY-JANE/p/12916201
those would work. enough! sorry...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:28:25
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:17:54
http://www.drmartens.com/us/Womens/Womens-Originals/1925/p/10111003
last one i promise..
i find them strangely good...
i think i like the shape of the steel cap. nostolga, probably... i can't seem to find jeans to hang / sit just so, either... but my feet don't look quite like how they are supposed to (from my pov, i mean)
Posted by Angela2 on July 3, 2014, at 12:16:36
In reply to might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 23:06:07
That really is no fair. How uncool.
Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 1:21:29
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by Angela2 on July 3, 2014, at 12:16:36
sigh. yes. there seem to be a couple other cool games about... and i can't play them, either. graphics card, again.
so...
these are the shoes i currently have:
http://www.slashsport.com/shop/product/nike-revolution-2-msl-womens-running-shoes-grey-pink-blue
i actually quite like them, but the baby blue and the pink clash with EVERYTHING i have... i like... red. and a sort of a royal blue... or a purply blue... i am realizing why i usually go for black black black... so i don't have to worry about colour co-ordination. but i have this thing for coloured shoes... so...
or
or... have i totally lost the plot, do you reckon?
i tried on some frees today... and i liked them. but i want to get some cheap if i can because i think i will need an extra pair of sneakers... something cheaper and more cushioned... but these will help me bounce lightly on the balls of my feet... i tell myself...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 2:08:57
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 1:21:29
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRjOAlvEfUc
hahahahaha.
they are trying to teach people to run properly / barefoot!
trouble is that most feet aren't strong enough to... i have vibrams, but i really can't tolerate them much. damn those pink / purple ones are pretty...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 4:07:29
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by Angela2 on July 3, 2014, at 12:16:36
okay... enough already! that got to be rather a lot like calculators...
done. assuming that website is kinda semi sorta legit.
i was reading something about how long the workers need to work in those sweatshops before they can afford a pair of those shoes... what is minimum wage? why does putting it offshore make it different? i mean... how long would you need to work on minimum wage in this country to buy a brand new pair of this seasons ones from retail.... ? a while... i'd say. half a week's pay? one weeks rent? something like that...
of course different countries have different laws on minimum wages (whether there are any such things and so on)... and on... how old you have to be to get a job... on whether you have to go to school... whether there is a school... meh.
i got pissy today about canned peaches being in apple juice. when it wasn't in sugar syrup. it makes me angry...
mostly we get stuff late. mostly we get several seasons behind crap, actually. i found the city nike store today... that was different. brand new this seasons stuff... but of course you pay for it. you pay for the stores rent. for the people who work in the store...
i'm proud of myself today... i got out and i actually went and tried on some shoes. i went to the department store which has the advantage of having pretty sh*t customer service. i mean... they leave you alone. all the boxes are there you just have a bit of a forage and see if you might be able to find decent stuff in your size...
then i went to some nicer stores because they didn't have anything decent in my size... and it is scary for hobo me (haha) to do that... but i did. and i tried on couple pairs of shoes... and people came... to wander about the store... to try stuff on... it is weird. shopping... a weird experience. some people like to have shop assistants befriend them / make fusses over them. like how some people like to have personal trainers at the gym etc...
i... uh... need to remember that mostly... people like people. people have a 'oh happy to see ya!' reponse to people. and i'm... pleasant. pleasant looking. acceptable, mostly. this is... weird for me. because mostly i cringe / have aversion to others. i expect that that is how they will feel about me. about my presence. but anyway... the shopping thing went okay. and of course most people just browse and don't buy so there isn't pressure. but the guy was nice... so i kinda feel bad that i didn't give him a sale... which is of course the point.
anyway...
today... i am grateful that i found some courage and that things turned out okay. the gym got good with most people going off for the break and the serious people being there... and i might have found a way of making new oly shoes work... which i surely need... i'm not as much of a nut bar about shoes and i probably seem to be... but my feet injuries... and it is kinda hilly about auckland. most people wear trainers or chucks, honestly. well... most undergrads. i'm uh, feeling my age... not a great deal to be done...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:31:19
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 4:07:29
which you'd have thunk i would have got to playing years ago...
i think...
this might be something that i'm starting to accept about myself. i LIKE computer games. it is nice to get a game to play during the break... helps me not go nutty. so long as i keep up showering and gymming... where is the harm??
Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:54:58
In reply to Re: spore, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:31:19
also...
i have a sniffle. sniff. sick, i am.
:-p
Posted by Dr. Bob on July 5, 2014, at 21:51:23
In reply to Re: spore, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:31:19
> i think...
>
> this might be something that i'm starting to accept about myself. i LIKE computer games. it is nice to get a game to play during the break... helps me not go nutty.Kind of hooked myself lately on:
http://gabrielecirulli.github.io/2048
Bob
Posted by Angela2 on July 5, 2014, at 22:42:56
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 4:07:29
I feel that way about strangers a lot too. It's funny because I'm friendly. But when I'm out walking, I don't always like saying hi to strangers who I pass. It's weird and uncomfortable and awkward, and I spend way too much time thinking about it.
Posted by Angela2 on July 5, 2014, at 22:44:41
In reply to Re: might and magic X, posted by alexandra_k on July 3, 2014, at 0:28:25
> http://www.drmartens.com/us/Womens/Womens-Originals/1925/p/10111003
>
> last one i promise..
>
> i find them strangely good...
>
> i think i like the shape of the steel cap. nostolga, probably... i can't seem to find jeans to hang / sit just so, either... but my feet don't look quite like how they are supposed to (from my pov, i mean)I remember Doc Martins. From the 90s. I also remember those boots that some of my friends were really interested in. Lace up, black and really tall.
Posted by Angela2 on July 5, 2014, at 22:48:15
In reply to Re: spore, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:31:19
> which you'd have thunk i would have got to playing years ago...
>
> i think...
>
> this might be something that i'm starting to accept about myself. i LIKE computer games. it is nice to get a game to play during the break... helps me not go nutty. so long as i keep up showering and gymming... where is the harm??
>
>I am glad that you accept this in yourself. If you enjoy it that's awesome. :) Hooray for not going nutty. I haven't read all your posts in this thread, but I will skim to see what you play..
I recently realized how much I love YA books (young adult books). Random, I know.
Posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 0:28:30
In reply to Re: spore, posted by Angela2 on July 5, 2014, at 22:48:15
Loiuse lawrence. And... Paula Danzinger (sp?). Memories...
I think my internet got sh*tty about my needing to download spore twice (you need to launch and enter product key before updating). I can access uni websites, but thats all... Maybe external access is quotad.
I don't think quotad is a word...
That is a pretty good little game... hrm... Reminds me a little of tripletown (before it got all commercial). Or minesweep.
I will play it a bit. I expect it grows on you (ha).
Posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 21:41:41
In reply to Re: spore, posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 0:28:30
internet working again, excellent!
i really was getting worried about it (that i'd have to track people down and say i didn't know there was a quota and i'm sorry please can i have it back now?)
but it is back!
that game dr bob posted a link to is really very addictive once you get the hang of it...
i think it is helping me remember that 2x8=16 ahahahaha
it has inspired me to get back to work on that maths website... This time with my good old friend the calculator...
it really is next to impossible for me to know how i'm actually doing... at the theory, i mean... i know i f*ck*d up the enthalpy calculations on the exam... my brain was totally fried by the time i got to them :(
(i mean... it is next to impossible to know how i'm doing in the sense of... what to make of me. even what other people do make of me. even... what is realistic for people to make of me. am i hopelessly deluded abotu med? with respect to academics? with respect to non-academic aspect? with respect to both? i just... don't have a sense... whether i'm a serious contender, even, or rather a lot of a joke, actually).
also... i think i understand now why people seemed rather shocked / horrified at the thought of my starting over. i think it is because most people... genuinely do have a sense that luck has been on their side. they have made it in the world, somehow, and they are a little bit berwildered about how they arrived at where they are... the thought of starting over... i think it scares people. people wonder 'how would i fare if i had to start over again?' there is this idea, too, that times are tougher now than they used to be... i guess improved social mobility means... less security for those placed nicely... people are aware of that and are glad they don't have to.
me... i seem to need to learn everything the hard way...
anyway... there is some high school level physics stuff on the chemistry website, too. a little on mechanics and rather a bit more on waves... so i can work away a bit at that...
helps to learn the symbols. and some practice with equations... just very simple equations are really hard for me... i'm just really not used to them at all. then the first one i learn is converting moles to mass and mass to moles and limiting reagent.. then enthalpy... q = m times c times delta t... but then a change in enthalpy is equal to q at constant pressure over the number of moles you have... which you will need to figure out... and also remember that the energy of the system is equal and opposite to the energy of the surround and that we can't measure the system directly. and don't forget to convert your units AAAAARGH. and scientific notation... a lot hard for my brain. and that was just... two lectures.
one of the things i f*ck*d up on the exam was that i spent too long learning later stuff (thought there would be more of a focus on testing that) rather than properly revising organic. i spent ages on acids and bases... figuring out how many molecules of each... log scale conversions... and ages on batteries with the whole 'oxidising' thing... and there were TWO FREAKING QUESTIONS on battteries - for 2 marks. 'what is reduced' (the metal) and calculate how many volts (i guess you figure the difference between the numbers?? that is a guess). and that was it. then drawing a f*ck*ng reaction diagram for organic... which i couldn't do... they upped the ante on the organic, i think. or maybe it was just my imagination since i didn't revise for it as well as i could have.
our grade isn't back yet. which surprises me... i thought they usually cracked the whip on exam marking... i have resigned myself for a B-... or a B if i get compassionate for the labs... B+ would be a bit much to hope for, i think. pretty sure i really didn't ace that exam... A- would be... f*ck*ng amazing. but out of reach. fairly f*ck*ng certain :( i'm... upset... but just gotta keep on trucking... nothing else to be done...
anyway... something something about the numerator and denomenator being in direct proportion.... and two of the others being inversely related...
i really can't tell if my brain is (and always was) broken when it comes to this... whether i'm perminently brain damaged because i never acquired these concepts during my earlier development... whether i'm really slow to learn them... whether... whether i'll ever come right.
hard to say. i guess all one can do is... keep on trucking.
my neighbour has gotten a bit noisy... that might mean that she is moving out. people tend to get noisy when they are moving out... quite a few students seem to be just here for one semester (US exchange students). so... she was pretty good... only kept me awake on 2 or 3 occasions... which is pretty good, really. pretty good, indeed. i mean... could be better... but could also be so very very very much worse.
i am fighting off being sick... i love my room so very very very very very much. i can turn up the heating (surely need it right now) and i have my view out on a very overcast and foggy day... and i have freshly made coffee and internet... and i have time... time and space and quiet (aside from teh bloody banging - what is she doing? building something?) and i can feel happy and productive doing some internet stuffs...
court on wednesday. i... i hope i get diversion. it might be a bit problematic (to put it mildly) if i don't...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 23:25:15
In reply to Re: spore, posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 21:41:41
wow.
i wouldn't be surprised if the room doesn't get snapped up, quick smart. it is a nice room... possibly nicer than mine, if you like more harbour and less sky tower...
i hope i get someone quiet who minds their own business. who doesn't start trying to... bang about empathetically, or whatever it is that people do when they are lonely / trying to be friendly. and i hope that they go out to socialise rather than having people over. and that they don't like to listen to loud music / don't sing kareoke like someone does on this floor (can hear her when i'm waiting for the elevator)... things really could be so very much worse...
i am reminding myself...
someone somewhere somehow... someone has a little faith in me. or kindness towards me. something like that. for me to even have this place. and for the government to be still loaning me money to study. so... i just feel... very disappointed in myself over my performance in chemistry. i DID work hard. really, very. honestly... i did the best that i could. i did get a bit demoralized and couldn't face things a bit... my performance might have (weirdly enough) actually imporoved if i had another course to distribute things over... but, whatever. i just hope... i haven't dissapointed whoever... whatever... out there.
i need to remember... i don't feel particularly impressed by people who rock up to the gym for the first time and effortlessly throw around more than my max... i feel a lot more impressed by the people who have worked hard at something that they felt to be hard. i guess science is a bit like that, really. people will probably feel... happier... with me, even... if i struggle a bit... but persist. i hope physics goes a bit kinder to me next semester...
Posted by alexandra_k on July 7, 2014, at 4:45:46
In reply to Re: she's gone, posted by alexandra_k on July 6, 2014, at 23:25:15
the issue...
is that i need much (much much much much) more alone time than most people. and most people simply don't understand that. i have learned that i need to not make friends too close to me in residential halls. started to go nuts in aussie and had to move to another wing... that meant... my friends would call / text if they wanted to catch up. which gives me freedom / liberty to ignore them. or to reply that i'm busy or whatever. and still feel able to come and go or whatever... not feel like i have to hide away pretending to be busy. not feel like i have to make excuses or whatever.
the walls are too thin, you see. you can hear whether people are home or not if you choose to pay attention to that. so if someone comes knocking... i simply have times when i need to not open the door. otherwise... it is like i don't have a personal space at all. i need to be able to wander round finding clothes after a shower... to cry my eyes out if i feel like it... not to feel like i always need to be within a couple minutes of a social face to answer the f*ck*ng door. i'd never be able to relax.
and so... i'll smile politely... but otherwise not talk to / pretty much ignore people on my floor, especially. because if i got someone who really didn't understand to back the f*ck off when it is pretty f*ck*ng obvious i need them to back the f*ck off then that could totally ruin this space for me.
and so... i really f*ck*ng hope we don't get people who start jamming their doors open and turning their music up... banging about trying to let everyone know they are home... trying to turn the floor into a group flat. keeping track of peoples comings and goings... gossiping about them... could totally ruin this space for me.
i don't think that would happen... but i guess one never can quite tell... i'm just saying this because people came prospecting before... and i heard someone wondering to someone else who was in my room. which, of course, doesn't bode well insofar as i really don't see why the hell they would give a sh*t if they were about just doing their thing...
anyway... i guess we will see... i wonder if they do try and match people / floor mates a bit... i do think they try... kinda miss you already person who i talked to just the once... who was perfectly pleasant. if she was on a different floor perhaps we could have been friends haha. anyway... i never got this sense that she was making noise just because she could hear me (inadvertantly) making noise! so she was trying to resonate with the noise in a friendly way! thing that a lot of people do... she never did that. which was... good. i'll miss her for that. even if she did have her noisy friends over occasionally... could have been so very much worse...
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