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Posted by kara lynne on July 11, 2003, at 23:06:42
He was there today when I went for my stuff although he had promised he wouldn't be. He said he'd wait upstairs and I wouldn't have to see him, but I couldn't stand it and went to him. The first thing he asked was if I was alright. It just felt so condescending I didn't answer. After a few business related sentences he asked if he could hug me. It was long and sad and I could have stayed forever, but I broke away.
I left and went to my parents where I put some of my stuff. They were ok, but there is always the underlying family stuff. I just wished I could come home to him so badly.
He just seems so fine, although he told the friend who was helping me today that I was
"the love of his life" and this was very hard for him too.I get home and see this bulk email from his office that was sent to all his customers and business contacts; I don't know whether his secretary unknowingly sent it to me or he did. Without including his company name it reads:
--Wanting to make sure our important friends have this information, weíre sending out this impersonal email. This is an exciting time for us. Our new books are getting a lot of attention. And a house ó a remarkable example of Storybook-style architecture from the ë30s ó really caught our eye. Fortune smiled on us, and we were able to lease the new ******House house.
The new office shares an address with the house, but itís an entirely separate building, once home to birds-of-prey owned by the original architect.
Invitation-only events at the house will help announce the real world arrival of projects like...---
Well you get the message. I couldn't refrain from writing him back asking if he's ever considered a course in sensitivity training. So where I might have been moving in with him on Monday, he has sent me an email that this is now what will be there instead.
I am just so sad. I am so hurt. This pain will never go away. I have been rejected, it's not just a feeling. He didn't love me enough to make it work, and he married his company instead of me. Most likely he has already found another woman who would be happy to live there with him and be a better fan than I was, and a better cook.
People say I will get over the heartbreak. I am home alone, wishing I were with him. I am too tired to do anything more today, but I am so lonely I feel like I could die.
Posted by loser on July 12, 2003, at 1:01:57
In reply to Help. : (, posted by kara lynne on July 11, 2003, at 23:06:42
Sorry you are feeling so bad. Hope you can get some sleep and hang on through the pain and loneliness and out the other side. Take care and know someone is thinking of you and wishing you well.
loser
Posted by Tabitha on July 12, 2003, at 1:17:33
In reply to Help. : (, posted by kara lynne on July 11, 2003, at 23:06:42
Aw, I'm sorry. The email was awful. I'm in breakup hell again too. All I know to do is make myself clean house. It's no fun but it keeps me moving.
Grieve, scream, cry, etc. Someday you'll be in a better relationship with a man who wants to focus on home life not just career.
Posted by sienna on July 12, 2003, at 1:44:45
In reply to Help. : (, posted by kara lynne on July 11, 2003, at 23:06:42
hi kara lynne
i am sorry you are hurting so much. i dont have any real good words of wisdom but i did want to let you know i do hear you.
sienna
Posted by Emme on July 12, 2003, at 4:55:35
In reply to Re: Help. : ( » kara lynne, posted by sienna on July 12, 2003, at 1:44:45
Hi Kara Lynne,
I'm so sorry this happened. I hope this is really the last up-close contact with him. I'm going to be away this weekend, but I'll be thinking about you.
Emme
Posted by lostsailor on July 12, 2003, at 21:06:31
In reply to Help. : (, posted by kara lynne on July 11, 2003, at 23:06:42
I am so dumb founded. I wrote you a huge reply last night and it's not here. I was weeping a river and felt a bond so I can't even try to write it again.
You stay strong for all of us. You are a fine example of a "babbler" (please take that for what it means, not what it sounds like!! b/c I know it sounds terrible bought the tip of tounge stuff is here) I bet I just forgot to hit confirm and almost feel as though I let you down.
~tony
Posted by kara lynne on July 12, 2003, at 23:06:23
In reply to Re: Help. : (-----kara, posted by lostsailor on July 12, 2003, at 21:06:31
It's so nice to hear from you! I was going to post to you today also. Thank you for your almost message, and your actual one. You described it so well I feel it anyway, but if you miraculously find it I would still love to read it.
I'm actually feeling better for the moment--I had to speak to him today and I realized he hadn't become the paragon of success and happiness I was projecting upon him. At least not at that moment. Anything for a reprieve-- I honestly don't think I can take much more.
So good to see your post.
Posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 8:05:51
In reply to (((sailor))), posted by kara lynne on July 12, 2003, at 23:06:23
Kara,
Your posts bring back so many memories.... They need the physical feeling of holding you again, and it just plays with your emotions...Anyways, email me and then maybe we can talk... saradotdaneviczatsiemensdotcom It is good to have a friend right now who understands where you are and where you have been...
I have been so lonely lately, that I achually called again, but the voice mail got it directly... I am fighting the same deamons, and have to face him everyday at work... I am truly living in hell.
Posted by kara lynne on July 14, 2003, at 12:21:07
In reply to Kara... Kara...Kara..., posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 8:05:51
Hi giget,
I will email you from work today. I'm all messed up again. I'm probably the one needing the hug more than he is right now. I can't stand being in this apartment one more day. Never has two weeks felt so long.I'm sorry you're in hell. How horrible that you have to work with him. What is it like when you see each other? Do you talk? How long since you've talked on the phone?
I will never get over how my ex isn't trying to get me back. When I talked to him over the weeked he said *I* haven't let him say anything, and that's why there hasn't been any contact. Funny, there still isn't. I've said what I have to say and he never responded. He responds to my hurt with arrogant, philosophical meanderings like---
After that last mass email he sent me I wrote back that he should consider a course in sensitivity training. He honestly didn't know why. I spelled it out and wrote back,: "Consider that we were going to have a life together once. Then consider that you are asking me for references to come Feng Shui the house we might have lived in together, where you will now be holding "special invitation" events for the business you married instead."
To which he replied: "I do want that house Feng Shui'ed. I would have wanted it Feng Shui'ed if you had lived there. I want it Feng Shui'ed now that you're not going to live there. NA has reintroduced me to the virtues of social interaction. I think it will be interesting to have salons there every month or so. The house is made for those kind of things. I would have loved it if you wanted to live there and put up with my NA-inspired wish to have dinner parties. Maybe you'll want to come to them. It's not all about selling, it's about staying healthy and engaging the mind with interesting guests. I hope you'll want to participate in some way or another."
Romantic, huh? There's a real play for me. Perhaps I could tell you how I'd like to participate...
I'l talk to you later giget. Take care, that lack of sleep thing with a full moon could make someone a little...er....sensitive.
Posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 12:34:51
In reply to Re: Kara... Kara...Kara..., posted by kara lynne on July 14, 2003, at 12:21:07
Hey,
What type of work does he do? I keep getting the image of him throwing sex parties, s&M stuff...
Nice way to try to get you back. At least he is trying in the dumb sexist way. You just have to understand that he will never be the person you want him to be, and this has proven my point. You deserve better.
I so wanted my ex to try to get me back... but that never happened. I was always the one, weak and climbing back to him....
Anyways yes it is hell seeing him. Every morning when I pull into the parking lot I see his car. I come into work and sometimes have a company wide email for his work to me. He will walk by my cube all day long. I have to work closely with a person whos cube is next to his. And if anyone has a problem with there computer he has to fix it... so he could be anywhere at anytime, even fixing my computer..... It is hell to see him taking over the old friends I had at work...
Anyways, Be strong... don't email... and do not go over to the house anymore!
Posted by gabbix2 on July 14, 2003, at 13:06:07
In reply to Re: Kara... Kara...Kara..., posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 12:34:51
How come I can't find you guys?
Actually thats not true. I know Kara Lynn,
Hi Giget, My boyfriend vanished into thin air,
after giving me a diamond ring he could ill afford because he loved me and wanted me to know how much. He was going away and wanted me to have something tangible to remind me that he was coming back.
He's not coming back. I know he's gotten my e-mails but hasn't responded to any of them.
Being unable to contact him to ask why, or to know what happened is making me crazi-er.
Especially after he told my best friend after what gabbi's been through I couldn't ever let her down..UGH.
I'm glad I don't have to work, I don't think I could right now. I don't know how you do it.
Posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 13:50:35
In reply to Hi, I'm in hell too » giget, posted by gabbix2 on July 14, 2003, at 13:06:07
I really do not know how I do it either. I guess I am so stubborn that I can not back down and give him the upper hand.
But I am fed up and planning to move ASAP... I will clean tolets with a toothbrush if it will get me outta here!
> How come I can't find you guys?
> Actually thats not true. I know Kara Lynn,
> Hi Giget, My boyfriend vanished into thin air,
> after giving me a diamond ring he could ill afford because he loved me and wanted me to know how much. He was going away and wanted me to have something tangible to remind me that he was coming back.
> He's not coming back. I know he's gotten my e-mails but hasn't responded to any of them.
> Being unable to contact him to ask why, or to know what happened is making me crazi-er.
> Especially after he told my best friend after what gabbi's been through I couldn't ever let her down..
>
> UGH.
>
> I'm glad I don't have to work, I don't think I could right now. I don't know how you do it.
>
>
>
Posted by whiterabbit on July 16, 2003, at 10:27:07
In reply to Re: Hi, I'm in hell too » gabbix2, posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 13:50:35
Go back and read my posts about life with an insensitive, selfish, egotistical jerk. Read Miller's posts too. Be aware that if you do end up being married to such a creature, the commitment to this union will be on your part alone. You'll have birthdays with no gift, Valentine's Day with no flowers, anniversaries with no card. You'll wake up late at night and wonder where he is and who he's with. Your weekends will be lonely, your tears will go unnoticed. This is life with a man who loves only himself, and he will never change. Never.
RUN RUN RUN! Save yourself!
8-( Sad Gracie
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