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Posted by lemonaide on September 10, 2008, at 22:13:47
I have been on a reading quest of books written by T's about being a T and serial killers.
Has anyone read this book about becoming a T?
It is very good, and seems realistic. He has another book out that I want to read about when T's become patients. I have been talking about all the reading I am doing with my T. He reads a lot to, he wants me to read this popular book about toxic parents.Things have been going well for me, I was elected as an officer of Psi Chi at my school yesterday. I guess it will look good for getting into grad school. I am glad I am not in school this semester, I have so much to do. Next week is my 15th wedding anniv, it is hard to believe it has been that long. I am feeling old. When the other members of Psi exchanged info, I realized they are old enough to be my own kids. I feel a little out of place.
I am thinking of canceling T next week so we will have more money to do something for our anniv. My husband is taking the day off and we were going to go to this cool SP in Illinois called Starved Rock with the kids and go hiking. If I cancel therapy I would have money for the family to eat out and that would be fun.
http://www.amazon.com/House-Dreams-Glass-Robert-Klitzman/dp/0804114366
Posted by Dinah on September 11, 2008, at 8:14:36
In reply to Reading a lot of T books and serial killer books, posted by lemonaide on September 10, 2008, at 22:13:47
It made me smile when I read the title. I assume the two topics are related only in that you wish to discover why serial killers do the things they do?
I'm glad you're doing so well, and I'm glad you are planning a fun event for your anniversary. Does that mean you and your husband are getting along better?
Posted by lemonaide on September 11, 2008, at 10:05:34
In reply to Re: Reading a lot of T books and serial killer books » lemonaide, posted by Dinah on September 11, 2008, at 8:14:36
You are right, I am on a quest on finding out why they do what they do, there are a lot of good TV shows on this too on cable I am watching. But reading books written by psychologists who interview these people are fun because I can imagine myself doing the same thing, and it makes me wonder if I could even do it. For me the most severe of mental health cases, fascinate me. My T also thinks I am trying to find an answer of why mom was like she was. There are many similarities.
I am now reading a book about a T who had an fell in love with a patient, married her, and eventually she killed him. There are many similarities in this story and from my past relationship with my old T. (but I have not plans on committing any murders)lol. Plus I am not reading this book to fantasize about my old T, that is over for me. But I do see how sick it is for a T to target a client.I am not sure how i feel about my husband, he has been supporting me this year more, especially when my depression hit a low point. But the problems still exist, but you could say I am putting them on the back burner for now while I am working on myself. There is no intimacies between us,(for the past 3 years) it is like I am living with a brother or something. Even with our problems, we still was able to be okay with each other if we avoided talking about the problems. It is helping the kids that we get along, so it is good all around. But I still have many conflicting feelings for him. I still can't get past that he cheated on me for over a year and that he refuses to take responsibility for this.
Posted by lemonaide on September 12, 2008, at 0:25:58
In reply to Reading a lot of T books and serial killer books, posted by lemonaide on September 10, 2008, at 22:13:47
I don't feel bad, I feel I will be okay without a session, it seems like not such a big deal. That is amazing to me that I would voluntarily cancel a session, not because I am angry or any bad reason. I am just choosing to do something else with the money. Wonder what this means if anything?
Posted by seldomseen on September 12, 2008, at 6:26:51
In reply to I cancelled my session for next week, posted by lemonaide on September 12, 2008, at 0:25:58
If anyone deserves a break from therapy, I definately think it is you. You've been dealing with some very very tough stuff. Some pretty intense feelings.
I wonder if this is just your body's way of saying "take a break - do something fun".
I say enjoy! Therapy will always be there.
Seldom
Posted by lemonaide on September 12, 2008, at 22:44:08
In reply to Re: I cancelled my session for next week » lemonaide, posted by seldomseen on September 12, 2008, at 6:26:51
Thanks Seldom!
Yeah, I think I will take a break.
But one thing that is on my mind, I think he has tried so hard to look like a normal human with faults and stuff, now I don't know if he is competent to help me. I wonder if his plan has kinda backfired because sometimes when he is talking I am thinking, okay I heard this before,blah blah, blah, and I am tired of reminding him who I am. He has changed since his illnesses, and he just doesn't seem as sharp or even warm as he used to be. I like him and all, but something is different. Or maybe it is me that has changed.
Posted by Partlycloudy on September 13, 2008, at 7:14:21
In reply to Having 2nd thoughts about him » seldomseen, posted by lemonaide on September 12, 2008, at 22:44:08
> Thanks Seldom!
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> Yeah, I think I will take a break.
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> But one thing that is on my mind, I think he has tried so hard to look like a normal human with faults and stuff, now I don't know if he is competent to help me. I wonder if his plan has kinda backfired because sometimes when he is talking I am thinking, okay I heard this before,blah blah, blah, and I am tired of reminding him who I am. He has changed since his illnesses, and he just doesn't seem as sharp or even warm as he used to be. I like him and all, but something is different. Or maybe it is me that has changed.There is something to this, Lemonaide. I had a (bad in many ways) T who was also physically fragile. She had a difficult time with continuity between our sessions, and I consequently had a difficult time building trust - it makes sense. We even had several sessions that I cut short because she was in visible discomfort and probably should have canceled them.
It was a relief for me to find another therapist and let that one go. I found that I spent too much of my energy thinking about her state of health and not enough on why I was supposed to be there. The relationship was dysfunctional in other ways, and I've since discovered that she is not well regarded in the field :-( No wonder I was feeling so bad about our sessions. I wouldn't say that she was a totally bad T - we did some good work; but ultimately there came a time when I knew it was best for me to move on, and it was important that I listened to that inner voice when it spoke to me.
Maybe you should be trusting your intuition on this? Take a little break and interview a new T when you're ready for it?
pc
Posted by Dinah on September 13, 2008, at 10:31:29
In reply to Having 2nd thoughts about him » seldomseen, posted by lemonaide on September 12, 2008, at 22:44:08
I hope that what happened after his illness doesn't cause you discount what happened before.
When my therapist is impaired for whatever reason, it really has an impact on my therapy. I know he tries to act as usual, but he doesn't succeed.
Posted by lemonaide on September 13, 2008, at 12:07:59
In reply to Re: Having 2nd thoughts about him » lemonaide, posted by Dinah on September 13, 2008, at 10:31:29
Actually I think about you and your T and what you have gone through, so it keeps some hope he will get better. But it seems like the entire year of therapy has disappeared from his memory and I did try to bring up his memory loss, so he knows I know. He did seem reluctant to go into more when I brought it up. I know he is still recovering, and I don't want him to feel worse for me bringing it up, but will he ever recover his memory?
I do know of one T that I seem to like, he doesn't do EMDR, but there is someone in his building that does. But I don't think I am ready to give up on my T yet. He was very good, and I hope that will come back. But due to his age, I just don't know. I guess I always have options, ew, I don't feel like thinking about this.
Our basement is flooding due to all the rain, so I feel yucky today.
Posted by Racer on September 19, 2008, at 14:33:15
In reply to Reading a lot of T books and serial killer books, posted by lemonaide on September 10, 2008, at 22:13:47
I wasn't actually reading the book, but did read a page on Google Books of a True Crime serial killer book -- and came across a friend of mine mentioned! Way weird, especially because it was a case he'd told me a little about. Just a quick note that he was her attorney -- at that time, it went to trial under someone else.
So, books + serial killers = Magpie Mind moment...
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