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Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
Is it my imagination or are we doing better with self-injury on this board?
It seems like not too long ago that many of us were really struggling to keep our physical bodies intact.
Recently I noticed that there hasn't been a post about it in a long time.
I will not lie-- I still struggle with it. Honestly, the only thing that has been stopping me recently is the thought of having to go to a formal party in a revealing dress. I don't want to reveal my boo boos.
Is this just my impression, or are people just not posting about it as much. Well, I hope we are doing better, but I understand if there are still urges, and slip ups along the way.
Just because I post this message doesn't mean that your SI shouldn't be talked about. I just wanted to open the door so that we can talk about what's working for us, and what's not working.
working for me
-medication (geodon, lamictal, klonopin, in particular
-little black dress
-therapist who checks up on this issue regularly. Helps with the shame. She can handle it and seems okay, if not eager to talk about it.
Posted by Dinah on May 22, 2007, at 18:40:15
In reply to Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
Not really. The constant (and earned) criticism, at home and at work has stirred up those feelings for me a lot.
I accidentally burned myself (it really was an accident), and that seems to be enough for now. But I'm trying to decide whether it would be a good idea to find somewhere to put my full bottle of klonopin so that I won't do anything stupid next time.
No idea why my mood suddenly turned like that. Period's out of whack, so it might be hormones.
Posted by jammerlich on May 22, 2007, at 19:29:29
In reply to Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
I have to check the "not really" box, too. It's gotten worse for me in the past week or so. I hadn't done it in nearly a year....probably because I just kept the stuff I use out of the apartment. But, last week, I made a special trip to the store.
I tried to be careful, knowing I'd be meeting people. And what I did is hardly worth mentioning. Barely any damage at all. I'm pretty sure no one even noticed and it wasn't hidden. Maybe it doesn't even count?
I have noticed that now the compulsion is much, much stronger. I think about it nearly all the time.
Blech. Can we say distraction?
Posted by wishingstar on May 22, 2007, at 22:13:46
In reply to Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
eh....
It's been about a month for me, which is good.. but only because I performed in a ballet (revealing clothes) this past weekend. I've had LOTS of urges to. I know I posted above that Im doing a lot better (and I am).. but I've been struggling with it a lot lately. I have a feeling I'll be back into it soon, but trying to wait it out. We'll see.
Posted by rubenstein on May 22, 2007, at 22:18:18
In reply to Re: Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by wishingstar on May 22, 2007, at 22:13:46
It has been about a month for me too. The urges are there but it is swimsuit season and I am at home. Its hard though, even when I know what the triggers are that "feeling" is hard to get to go away. Or else live with.......
rachel
Posted by Phillipa on May 22, 2007, at 23:08:36
In reply to Re: Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by rubenstein on May 22, 2007, at 22:18:18
I don't think about it as much don't od or cut or any of that stuff just think. Love Phillipa
Posted by karen_kay on May 23, 2007, at 6:49:12
In reply to Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
kinda nice to be back.
this was somethig i struggled with all the time. daily basis actually. i don't anymore. i decided it just wasn't an option. i started seeing 'bubba' and we decided together it wasn't an option for me. (when i was growing up, i had a wooden board that i used to beat against my head, as i got busted with si and accused of doing drugs, which i really wasn't, hence the wooden board. any sort of emotion in my household just wasn't allowed, you know..)
anywhooo.... frustration is just the worst feeling for me. and from time to time, i do wake mister kk with me knocking my head against the bedroom door. i can only imagine how he must feel, waking up to that. not often at all, but only a few rare occassions. like i said, frustration is something i just can't handle.
wowsa, why does my belly hurt now? guess that constitutes si, doesn't it? (maybe those old lady drinks make it hurt? :)
Posted by karen_kay on May 23, 2007, at 6:51:36
In reply to haven't been to these parts in a while! » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by karen_kay on May 23, 2007, at 6:49:12
Posted by B2chica on May 25, 2007, at 8:37:56
In reply to Are we doing better? **SI triggers**, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 17:00:26
fraid i gotta add into this...it's been kinda different really. i'm not sure what's stirred up these feelings as of late but they are there...and Very tempting...i have strong urges to cut up but haven't yet.
i think i haven't mostly cuz of the little one now. and iv'e found other ways to self abuse, like the natural lack of sleep, pushing myself to 'do it all' and when the little one grabs a fistful of my hair and pulls tight i just don't stop it.
in a way, i get the SI without the blame that way.
it sounds kinda twisted, is that abusive? i don't know. but i know right now the little one doesn't know it hurts me and i show no signs of pain, so i think it's ok. (though that means it probably not).
but...is this terrible? should i stop this? i just can't right now.
feelings of selfcontempt are coming back but are also supported by neg. words from DH.my 2 c.
b2c.
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