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Posted by madeline on May 19, 2006, at 17:55:53
Well, at least the support of a good therapist.
So as many of you may know, the bottom felt out on me this past weekend. Suicidal ideation, psychotic breaks, the whole nine yards. This was followed by extreme paranoia and anxiety. It's been a tough week.
I've seen my therapist twice this week and have talked to him everyday. We are controlling my symptoms right now with Klonopin and the desire to kill myself has passed, replaced by a very calm, tranquil feeling. I hate the benzos, but boy so they work.
I know I am getting better because my sense of smell has returned. I was walking through the grocery store today and smelled the bananas. I couldn't really smell anything else, but their scent was so wonderful. I bought several.
I wouldn't have made it if it weren't for you guys and the persistent support and guidance from my dynamite therapist. He is a psychiatrist as well, so he genuinely knows which meds would suit me the best. It's nice. I'm probably going to start on lamictal next week.
He also, several times has looked me straight in the eye, leaned forward in his chair and told me point blank that the shame that I feel is not mine to bear. It belongs with the abusers, not me. He's not going to let me forget that.
Like you guys, he's going to walk down this dark dark path with me and I am so grateful.
Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 17:59:13
In reply to An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by madeline on May 19, 2006, at 17:55:53
Maddie,
That's so wonderful. Your posts today read like you're feeling much better. I'm inspired by you. Enjoy your bananas.
-llrrrpp
Posted by happyflower on May 19, 2006, at 21:06:00
In reply to Re: An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 17:59:13
Glad you are doing better Maddie! It gives me some hope, hearing how well you are.
(((((((Maddie))))) Keep up the good work.
Happyflower
Posted by TherapyGirl on May 20, 2006, at 9:10:18
In reply to An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by madeline on May 19, 2006, at 17:55:53
Maddie, I'm so very pleased for you. And thanks for posting so that we can all know that it is possible to come out the other side. Your T sounds like a wonderful man -- I'm glad you have him with you.
Posted by madeline on May 20, 2006, at 9:29:03
In reply to Re: An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 17:59:13
I don't know about inspiration, but I'm adapting to life in "freefall" I guess.
Having the bottom yanked out from under me just happens sometimes, it sucks, it hurts and it's unfair, but it is my life.
I truly consider myself one of the lucky ones in that I am not alone in this. Sure I pay close to a 1,000 a month sometimes for therapy, but it is worth it's weight in gold to me.
I also have my friends in babble and there is no way I could put a price on that.
Maddie
Posted by madeline on May 20, 2006, at 9:33:18
In reply to Re: An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by happyflower on May 19, 2006, at 21:06:00
Life is tough I think happyflower and sometimes it takes extreme badness to wake you up to how good it really can be.
I'm still in freefall, but at least I'm enjoying the view on the way down this time.
What a week!
Love
Maddie
Posted by madeline on May 20, 2006, at 9:37:02
In reply to Re: An update on me. Therapy really does work » madeline, posted by TherapyGirl on May 20, 2006, at 9:10:18
My T is a wonderful man and a wonderful physician. That's not to say that we haven't had some really bad times, because boy have we ever.
I've accused him of just about everything in the book. I've thrown up every kind of resistance I could AND I've let him just have it over some of the stupidest things.
I've done everything but quit. And he's still there plugging away with me.
I owe him so much more than money. His job must be the rewarding one on the planet.
I'm so glad he is with me.
Maddie
Posted by orchid on May 22, 2006, at 16:29:31
In reply to An update on me. Therapy really does work, posted by madeline on May 19, 2006, at 17:55:53
I just read this thread now.. How very sweet.. Your T is very good to you, and I am glad you are finding the help you need and deserve.
> Well, at least the support of a good therapist.
>
> So as many of you may know, the bottom felt out on me this past weekend. Suicidal ideation, psychotic breaks, the whole nine yards. This was followed by extreme paranoia and anxiety. It's been a tough week.
>
> I've seen my therapist twice this week and have talked to him everyday. We are controlling my symptoms right now with Klonopin and the desire to kill myself has passed, replaced by a very calm, tranquil feeling. I hate the benzos, but boy so they work.
>
> I know I am getting better because my sense of smell has returned. I was walking through the grocery store today and smelled the bananas. I couldn't really smell anything else, but their scent was so wonderful. I bought several.
>
> I wouldn't have made it if it weren't for you guys and the persistent support and guidance from my dynamite therapist. He is a psychiatrist as well, so he genuinely knows which meds would suit me the best. It's nice. I'm probably going to start on lamictal next week.
>
> He also, several times has looked me straight in the eye, leaned forward in his chair and told me point blank that the shame that I feel is not mine to bear. It belongs with the abusers, not me. He's not going to let me forget that.
>
> Like you guys, he's going to walk down this dark dark path with me and I am so grateful.
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