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Posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 12:21:37
Just checking in - after my 32-week exile...
Wondering if anyone remembers me... Funny, but besides Lou, Rayww, Simus, Dinah, and maybe a couple more folks, most of the names are different from the last time I was here.
I've checked in from time to time, and have enjoyed watching the interchanges.
MUCH has changed for me -- same husband and children (all 7 of 'em), but we're about to move 3,000 miles away - back to my home state, where all my family has been throughout my 18 year marriage.
My wonderful husband is giving up everything for me - to bring me "home"...
We've bought an amazing Victorian house, on Main Street in a small town, right on the edge of downtown -- my children and I will be able to walk everywhere - it's a lovely place, full of community - 45 minutes to the ocean, and 45 minutes to mountains with year-round snow caps.
Only two streetlights in town!
For that, I will GLADLY give up "Endless Suburbia", traffic jams, humidity, and isolationism...
We left our church last summer, after discovering just how very legalistic it was, and after they denounced me for being healed, and for falling back in love with my husband -- go figure!I have no idea where God wants to plug me in -- regarding a faith community. I'm quite burned on "pew sitting", and "church as usual" ...
I'm no longer part of "Churchianity" in the traditional, modern sense of the word, as it no longer means to me what it once did...
I do however love and follow Jesus - as He's been redefining Himself to me, and to my family...
I had to take all of my theology, doctrines, dogmas, and traditions, and chuck them...
I just sat there, wondering who I am, who God is, and how He wants me relating to Him...
I told Him I didn't know what I knew or believed anymore, and He would have to give me a personal tutorial.
He's been faithful to do just that.
I'm in awe.
He's soooooo much more than I ever knew.
He's no longer in a box of my own, or anyone else's, making. He's far too huge and mysterious to fit into any sort of box, any sort of definition, any sort of limitation.
He's not safe - not by a long shot.
But He's good. Very good.
I know so little, and have so much to learn.
It's an amazing journey!!!
Shalom, Dena
Posted by Spriggy on April 7, 2005, at 12:56:12
In reply to HellllllloooooOOOOOOO????, posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 12:21:37
That was good stuff that you wrote.
And I agree with you.
I think the more I get to know about God, the more I realize how little I know.He is just WAAY too big for our human minds to perceive and comprehend. Nor are we really supposed to grasp Him.
For He declared, " My ways are not your ways, nor my thoughts like your thoughts."
I love these words from a song:
God... is God and I am not,
I can only see a part,
Of the picture He's painting,
God... is God and I am man,
So I'll never understand it all,
For only God is God.That pretty much says it all!
Posted by rayww on April 7, 2005, at 21:19:18
In reply to HellllllloooooOOOOOOO????, posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 12:21:37
....and you came back? You have gone through a lot. We welcome you with open arms. You called it a 32 week exile. Did you feel like Paul? It's wierd how we learn some of the emotions of life. Have you learned any new ones? I'm working on rejection.
Posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 22:07:52
In reply to Re: HellllllloooooOOOOOOO????, posted by Spriggy on April 7, 2005, at 12:56:12
Thank you kindly for your welcoming post, Spriggy!
I really enjoyed your previous post, about the NWS! Alas, I, too, have suffered from that malaise!
<moment of silence to pray for my longsuffering husband!>
But, God saw fit to give me a man who can push my buttons like nobody's business! I apparently have great need for regular button-pushing!
Hence, my wonderful, handsome and button-pushing man, AND my likewise wonderful, full-of-life, and button-pushing 7 children!
One way or another, I WILL develop character. Guaranteed!
I look forward to getting to know you here!
Shalom, Dena
Posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 22:15:23
In reply to 32 weeks = 8 months » Dena, posted by rayww on April 7, 2005, at 21:19:18
> ....and you came back? You have gone through a lot. We welcome you with open arms. You called it a 32 week exile. Did you feel like Paul? It's wierd how we learn some of the emotions of life. Have you learned any new ones? I'm working on rejection.
Rayww - my dear friend! 'Tis good to be back amongst the Babblers!Well, I wasn't shipwrecked, nor stoned, nor whipped, nor dragged before the courts... so, no, I can't quite claim Paul's status.
I just enjoyed my marriage having been healed, the joy of having my faith re-foundationalized, the trials of endurding being shunned by my former church and people I thought were friends, worked like a dog to get our house ready to sell, found the home(s) of my dreams, and found a board where I've been merrily posting about the joys of God's gift of married sex!
It's all good!
I'm sorry you're dealing with rejection... from you, or toward you? It's painful either way, but especially to receive... I know it well.
Care to elaborate? You're so good at expressing yourself with words! I enjoy your posts.
If not here, then, through another media, perhaps? I've been told I'm learning to be a better listener...!
Thank you for the open arms... despite all that's been thrown your way (by me), you've not yet shown me one iota of rejection. For that, I treasure you, and thank you!
Shalom, Dena
Posted by rayww on April 9, 2005, at 0:14:59
In reply to Re: 32 weeks = 8 months » rayww, posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 22:15:23
Not shipwrecked? then perhaps you missed the boat.
Shipwrecked: when you were thrown out of the boat of your fellowship. Stoned: the firey darts of gossip that defamed your credibility. Whipped: when your healing was used as a lash against you. Dragged before the courts: the "expose" (ex-pose-ay) when your secret acts became public. Hey, it's all there, and it's quite a good story.>
> Well, I wasn't shipwrecked, nor stoned, nor whipped, nor dragged before the courts... so, no, I can't quite claim Paul's status.> I'm sorry you're dealing with rejection... from you, or toward you? It's painful either way, but especially to receive... I know it well.
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> Care to elaborate? You're so good at expressing yourself with words! I enjoy your posts.You know how I write, I love raw expression, just as it pours from the heart, as you do. Not only that, I love unique expression, llike a thought or a belief expressed better than it has ever been expressed by anyone before. Sometimes I get really attached to something I have written, then go back and read it over and over again, like I'm so in love with myself. And, of course I'm going to feel rejected, when in reality as it turns out, the writing is just a spill, that makes a bit of mess. It's a bipolar thing I guess, which is another confusing issue. So much for my tale of wo. Actually life is wonderful outside of my clouded perception.
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> Thank you for the open arms... despite all that's been thrown your way (by me), you've not yet shown me one iota of rejection. For that, I treasure you, and thank you!Gee Dena, that was nice.
Posted by Dena on April 9, 2005, at 8:53:28
In reply to Re: 32 weeks = 8 months » Dena, posted by rayww on April 9, 2005, at 0:14:59
I think I LIKE being called "nice"!
Kind of like a new article of clothing that you'd never have considered trying on before, only once you do, you realize you quite like the fit, as well as your own reflection...
Posted by Simus on April 10, 2005, at 10:12:25
In reply to HellllllloooooOOOOOOO????, posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 12:21:37
Missed you a bunch, Dena!!!
Welcome back!
(((hugs)))
Simus
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