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Posted by broken on May 11, 2005, at 8:29:23
So what can I tell you?
Life's the length of this play
Perhaps God gave the answers
To those with nothing to say
If the years are forgiving
And God's forgiven in kind
Perhaps we'll all see the answers
Somewhere in time
.... John Oliva.I've listened to those words over and over again for the last 10-12 years, and they always move me. They saw me through a lot of bad times, and I am forever indebted to John for writing the song. There is hope there, and sometimes that is all I have to cling to.
I had a really high, manic run that lasted a good while, and now I am in that inbetween place. It's not exactly a void, but it is a free floating area. I might go back up, I might fall in a downward spiral. You never know.
Posted by sunny10 on May 11, 2005, at 10:07:16
In reply to Somewhere in Time, posted by broken on May 11, 2005, at 8:29:23
are you content to be here floating with us?
I know I like having you here. And you "sound" calmer and more content- are you?
peace,
sunny10
Posted by broken on May 11, 2005, at 11:31:39
In reply to Re: Somewhere in Time » broken, posted by sunny10 on May 11, 2005, at 10:07:16
> are you content to be here floating with us?
>
> I know I like having you here. And you "sound" calmer and more content- are you?
>
> peace,
> sunny10
Sunny :)I am happy to be here "floating". Well, I'd prefer to be much more stable, and alot less floating, but you know what I mean.
I am more calm. I am alot more satisfied with my treatment these days too. It really took a while to settle in with my Pdoc, and not want to rip his head off for not listening to me. Since we've agreed now on what seems to work best, and I'm reacting "decently" to it, it's alot better.
I think, for me anyway, one of the things that has helped is hitting the gym. I am in there 6 days a week. The drugs that I took/take seemed to have caused a weight gain. I was 5'10 175lbs, and went to 205lbs pretty damn quick. I felt pretty horrible about myself. So I began heavy weightlifting, and decided to try to convert the fat into muscle. After 7 weeks in the gym, I can see a big difference, and I just feel better in general. Obviously, it hasn't solved my problems by any means, but it has allowed me begin to feel good again about the way I look. That helped in the depression department all by itself.
I know, I cant give a short answer about anything. I have to write a book. I guess my short answer would be:
Yes, I am happy I can spend time here with all of you, and yes, I am more under control than I have been in the past.And Sunny, thankyou for asking... You are such a sweetheart and you make everyone feel like someone special...
Chris
Posted by cockeyed on May 11, 2005, at 13:19:48
In reply to Re: Somewhere in Time » sunny10, posted by broken on May 11, 2005, at 11:31:39
> > are you content to be here floating with us?
> >
> > I know I like having you here. And you "sound" calmer and more content- are you?
> >
> > peace,
> > sunny10
>
>
> Sunny :)
>
> I am happy to be here "floating". Well, I'd prefer to be much more stable, and alot less floating, but you know what I mean.
>
> I am more calm. I am alot more satisfied with my treatment these days too. It really took a while to settle in with my Pdoc, and not want to rip his head off for not listening to me. Since we've agreed now on what seems to work best, and I'm reacting "decently" to it, it's alot better.
>
> I think, for me anyway, one of the things that has helped is hitting the gym. I am in there 6 days a week. The drugs that I took/take seemed to have caused a weight gain. I was 5'10 175lbs, and went to 205lbs pretty damn quick. I felt pretty horrible about myself. So I began heavy weightlifting, and decided to try to convert the fat into muscle. After 7 weeks in the gym, I can see a big difference, and I just feel better in general. Obviously, it hasn't solved my problems by any means, but it has allowed me begin to feel good again about the way I look. That helped in the depression department all by itself.
>
> I know, I cant give a short answer about anything. I have to write a book. I guess my short answer would be:
> Yes, I am happy I can spend time here with all of you, and yes, I am more under control than I have been in the past.
>
> And Sunny, thankyou for asking... You are such a sweetheart and you make everyone feel like someone special...
>
> ChrisChris, Give me a break. God in a gym...that's what I get from your post. And you know, it makes way more sense than church. I've been sick and nuts for a long time. I started taking a sledge hammer to rocks to get pieces to use in what I call "art". But that sledge hammer has given me the strength to go back out and try to play tennis. BFD, but, damn it means sanity to me. A focus on something other than hell, the emptiness of...loss of God? I don't know. He doesn't talk to me any more so I don't talk to him. But you make so much sense...I didn't realize how lucky I am to be able so pick up that sledge hammer and just swing it for exercise. No rocks, no booze, no oblivion...thanks for your "book" You hit me where it counts. Thanks, cockeyed.
Posted by sunny10 on May 11, 2005, at 13:37:58
In reply to Re: Somewhere in Time, posted by cockeyed on May 11, 2005, at 13:19:48
is it possible that this floating you're experiencing IS stability? Maybe it just feels like floating because you are unused to being stable?
Your post about finding a physical release for stress AND a way to take the weight back off (yes, that in itself really took me on a downward spiral,too) sounds extremely stable to me...
and thanks for calling me a sweetheart... it put a smile on my face and I haven't been smiling too much lately...
Posted by AdaGrace on May 13, 2005, at 9:08:09
In reply to Re: Somewhere in Time, posted by cockeyed on May 11, 2005, at 13:19:48
Sorry to jump in here, but something you said struck me as interesting and exactly how I feel.
<<<A focus on something other than hell, the emptiness of...loss of God? I don't know. He doesn't talk to me any more so I don't talk to him.>>>
My head says the same thing to me.........
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