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Posted by alexandra_k on February 24, 2005, at 21:38:33
Susan said something about 'boulders moving' once. I wasn't sure what she meant or what that would feel like. But I felt something and the only way I can think to describe it is like boulders moving inside of me. I don't know if this is at all related to what she was talking about.
But it is something big
monumental
solid
a creaking kind of movement
deep
and really big
and kind of painful but not really
and a lot strange.
And I really didn't want it to happen.
I didn't want to feel like that.
But one of them was moving
And I had to push back with another one
As hard as I could.Strange
and I do not like it at all.
Posted by Damos on February 24, 2005, at 23:27:58
In reply to Boulders moving, posted by alexandra_k on February 24, 2005, at 21:38:33
Whoa, sounds seriously weird kiddo. Can't say I've ever experienced anything that fits that description - luckily by the sound of it.
You okay?
((((((alexandra_k))))))
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:36:10
In reply to Boulders moving, posted by alexandra_k on February 24, 2005, at 21:38:33
The one you have to push back with.. does it feel different than the one that started moving on its own? Does it feel softer or lighter somehow? Or is it really pushing back Hard? I'm just wondering.
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:37:42
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » alexandra_k, posted by Damos on February 24, 2005, at 23:27:58
(((Damos)))!!!
:-)
and of course pass on a big sloppy one to Sarah for me
:-)> Whoa, sounds seriously weird kiddo. Can't say I've ever experienced anything that fits that description - luckily by the sound of it.
Hmm. I have never felt it like that before either. Yeah, twas a bit freaky.
> You okay?
Yeah, I am ok.
Well, kinda struggling.
But ok.
I will be ok.I need to work on my anger.
My frustration.
Make sure I don't take it out on others.
Make sure I don't take it out on myself.
I don't like these feelings
They frighten me :-(But I will be ok.
I am ok.Thanks.
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:40:16
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » alexandra_k, posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:36:10
> The one you have to push back with.. does it feel different than the one that started moving on its own?
I am only aware of them because they are moving - one in relation to the other. One feels like me. The other doesn't feel like me.
>Does it feel softer or lighter somehow?
Nope. Heavy. Solid. Moving ever so slowly..
>Or is it really pushing back Hard?
Moving slowly but hard to stop because it is heavy.
>I'm just wondering.
Wanna describe yours a bit more???
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:50:35
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » Damos, posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:37:42
It is scary. It is definitely scary. It takes a lot of courage to recognize the boulders for what they are. We all have them ... it's what we do about them that matters ...
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:52:05
In reply to Re: Boulders moving, posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:50:35
What are we supposed to do, do ya reckon???
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:52:07
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:40:16
Slow and easy, everything slow and easy and sometimes stopping, going in reverse even, if necessary .. don't push yourself, alexandra. Be good to you.
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:54:38
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » alexandra_k, posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 1:52:07
Yeah.
Try not to take my anger out on me.
Or them.
Or any of you guys...Ugh. I don't like feeling mad. It scaires me.
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 2:01:55
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 1:54:38
Oh well. That's part of the price. You have a right to be angry and post angry things and to let us know how angry you are. Just don't get personal, that's all. But for goodness' sake allow yourself to be angry. Get really p*ssed off. Why on earth not? Sorry, maybe that's just my mood talking. It's late and I've got to get to bed. To sleep, perchance to dream ... or something.
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 4:57:21
In reply to Re: Boulders moving, posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 2:01:55
> To sleep, perchance to dream ... or something.
To live or not to live, that is the question.
Whether it is better to suffer a sea of sorrows or face the the slings and arrows of outragous fortune.. [thats not quite right...]
To die, to sleep.
To sleep perchance to dream.
Aye, theres the rub.
To die, to sleep no more.
Tis a consumation devoutly to be wished.
[Hmm. This is in there somewhere too...]And by a sleep to end the heartaches and the thousand natural shocks that flesh is heir to.
Or something...
Methinks he didn't have very nice dreams.
Or didn't like waking up.
Or something...Hamlet.
I used to know this passage. But that is the best I can do right now.
Goodnight Susan.
Sweet dreams.
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 10:25:26
In reply to Re: Boulders moving » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 4:57:21
Maybe it's just better, sometimes, to embrace the part of you that's not "normal" and learn to live with it. And find others who can, too. Like here. I love that you're complicated and artistic and moody. To hell with those who don't know what to do with it.
Posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 10:26:31
In reply to Okay., posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 10:25:26
Missed the censor again. Okay h*ll is not a word that's in there. Can you put it in?
Posted by alexandra_k on February 25, 2005, at 16:16:38
In reply to Re: Okay. Dr. Bob?, posted by Susan47 on February 25, 2005, at 10:26:31
My understanding is that
Hell, bugger, and damn are allowed.
B*llshit even.
But not p*m p*m's
Or b*mbo.I find it mildly amusing..
Thanks Susan.
I don't like being 'moody'.
I would rather be 'happy'.
But, oh well.
Can't have everything I suppose.
I messed up the Shakespeare quote rather badly.
Thought about it while I struggled with not being able to sleep...To be or not to be - that is the question
(Not live or die)
Whether tis nobler to suffer the slings and arrows of outragous fortune or to take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing end them.
To die.
To sleep no more.
Tis a consumation devoutly to be wished.And I'll stop now.
That might still be wrong.
Oh well.
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