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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 17:09:02
I already posted this on the main board, but I have to talk about it. I've realized that most of my problem solving skills is very low. This explains why I am so sad because I don't take the inciative to get help from social services. I just don't know who to call. I have no idea what I really need. I don't need to stay anywhere especially a hosptial. DARS got the test results back and they said in the report that I can't be in any competive employment and that I need to apply for social security disablity. I don't really think I need social sec. checks but it would be helpful to have some money come in.
I watch the same thing's over and over on youtube and then get bored with it. I need to expand myself but I feel like I need someone to help me to do this, I have friends but I never call them. I stay cooped up in the house and feel safe, but in reality its very unheathly and its causing my mind to decline. I need to do things that will shapren my mind. Can I be open to share things and maybe have someone mentor me??
When I was younger I wanted to be many things that I know I can't reach without having some help of some kind. I wanted to be envolved in the goverment and I had ideas of moving and then only to find that I have done nothing with my life to improve it and choose to stay cooped up and safe. I never went to college. This was all a choice, and I choose the path that I am in right now. So don't feel sorry for me at all, this wasnt any accident it was a choice. And now I'm trying to learn how to undo my choices and change them and Im going to need help.I hate to post things that obligate people to say something. This isnt a life or death sitation. It just a very barren feeling that I have lost the road to living a life. That's the problem, now I need to find a solution. Please don't waste your time with a long post, its not that I don't want you to post something that's from logic and wisdom. It's the fact that I lose hope and even if I read a long post with much wisdom and resources in it. I just don't even listen to vital suggestions because my hope is gone.
That's all I have.
Posted by gadchik on January 16, 2012, at 17:37:53
In reply to tests results say im below average, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 17:09:02
I say to you,this is your life,your only one:start by helping someone else.Ask someone about their problems,really listen,it takes you out of your head,and your problems.I hope you can feel at peace someday.
Posted by Phillipa on January 16, 2012, at 18:12:35
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average, posted by gadchik on January 16, 2012, at 17:37:53
Matt what Gadchick says is so true. I try to help others here but I don't have the knowledge many others do. I just try. Phillipa
Posted by gadchik on January 16, 2012, at 18:18:01
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average, posted by Phillipa on January 16, 2012, at 18:12:35
you do try,phillipa,and you really care.It helps more than you know.
Posted by gadchik on January 16, 2012, at 18:32:59
In reply to tests results say im below average, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 17:09:02
you dont strike me as "below average".You seem to have alot going on in your head.I bet you have much to offer.Volunteer,talk to people,walk dogs at the shelter.Ive told you this before,I know.You suffer,you are sad,yes,but just do one of the things I suggested,just for 1 day.The world will open up to you.
Posted by Phillipa on January 16, 2012, at 20:48:44
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average » Phillipa, posted by gadchik on January 16, 2012, at 18:18:01
Thanks Gadchic that is all any of us can do. I've Known Matt for years via babble and I know he is smart and Matt I don't believe the results. Love Phillipa
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 22:16:37
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average » gadchik, posted by Phillipa on January 16, 2012, at 20:48:44
You know soltice told me the same thing. I do volunteer now sometimes for Narcotics Ananymous. I go to the subcommiteee meetings and one of my main tasks is to find out through 211 if we can get the NA helpline to 211 so if someone needs to talk someone because they are having drug problems.
Even if I focus off myself I have a habit of getting to point where I feel like nothing is going to work. No matter how positive I can be. I go up and then I go back down. There's got to be a better way dealing with problems than this. I am very sure its common sense and I just have not realized its right under my nose. I just wished I could be happy, so you know its choice to be happy or to be sad. Now there are some CIRCUMSTANCES that can influence the mood even if you choose to be happy you still have that "weight" that will pull you down and you've got to learn how to "drop" depression off of you like removing excessive luggage, part of that is medication and the other is the choice you make.
Anyways, yes phillipa posts to almost all the posts here because she cares. I need to do that I just sometimes don't know what to say because some people have completly diffrent problems that I Cannot relate to.
Anyways, I hate it when I am desperate for help and then I just discard the post that I wrote because It seems hopeless even with advice I still have it programmed in my mind that I am doomed....
Posted by Christ_empowered on January 17, 2012, at 3:28:58
In reply to tests results say im below average, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 17:09:02
Personally, I think you're on too many drugs. When I was drugged up (and for a few years post-drugged up) I wasn't doing too well mentally. I couldn't think straight, and I had these memories of having been reasonably intelligent, but I just wasn't at that level anymore. I got better by doing psychosocial rehabilitation through a Christian rehab program and finding the right 1-2 medications to keep the psychosis at bay.
I don't think disability would be a terrible idea, at least for a while. Get it and then get into vocational rehabilitation or something (that's what I'm in around here, vocational rehab). If you can get a job, then, great. If, for whatever reason, it doesn't pan out--you'll at least have medicare/medicaid (I think some people get both, not sure though) and a little bit of income.
Once you have disability, you'll be able to get a new doctor, maybe a therapist. I'd personally recommend the public mental health places--they believe in the recovery model. You might also be able to get housing of some sort, or at least maybe throw your parents some token rent so they'll stay off your back. Just a thought.
Like I wrote above, its not as if being on disability always means you stay on disability. It might just mean you're on disability until you can work out your meds, therapy, training, etc., and get a job that will support you. Or it could be lifelong.
Posted by gadchik on January 17, 2012, at 8:36:04
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 22:16:37
I always think of you long after I read one of your posts.You have a knack for that.I think you have an intensity about you that could be put to use by turning it toward others to help in some way.Here's an example. I remember a time I was so sad,and hopeless.I walked the streets to clear my head.I came across an elderly woman sitting on her porch.I had noticed her many times,never spoke to her.That day,I went right up and sat on her porch w/her. We talked long about many things.I esp enjoyed her life story.It didnt heal me,but it helped get me out of my head.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 17, 2012, at 11:45:45
In reply to Re: tests results say im below average, posted by Christ_empowered on January 17, 2012, at 3:28:58
Yes, I do take alot of medications well 4 of them but I seriously don't know if they even have any effect on my cognitive skills at all. I already have been diagnosed with a disablity through the testing I took which said I have schizophrenia. This is through DARS which IS a Vocational rehab service. I hate those tests because they have no perception of giving a diagnosis only through awnsering 360 mental questions.
I do need to to get out of my head its just like everywhere I go the depression or more like "doomed" feeling follows me even when I go up and feel good. It comes back.
And I don't want to make something of this that's it not, I don't want to confuse readers or try to get attention from them like I did various times in the past which I read those posts today and can't even understand what I was writing. but yes, i do need to volenteer I just havent made the effort to do it.
Anyways. When I post stuff like this, its like I need help but then after I read it again I just discard it because I feel like I'm just hopeless even with all the advice in the world that is given to me. You have to get your head out of the dooms day scenario and actually look to better things than how depressed you are. It's a very difficult task but It can be done....
Matt
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