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Posted by bimini on December 21, 2004, at 10:33:21
In reply to How did you choose your posting name?, posted by ed_uk on December 17, 2004, at 6:33:26
I have visual hallucinations to an in- and decreasing degree every day. I chose bimini for the three "eyes".
bimini
Posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2004, at 14:46:32
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by bimini on December 21, 2004, at 10:33:21
Mine is fairly boring I'm afraid. Middle name, first initial.
Posted by Atticus on December 22, 2004, at 19:21:25
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2004, at 14:46:32
Atticus Finch is one of my favorite literary characters, and "To Kill a Mockingbird" one of my favorite movies -- especially due to Gregory Peck's portrayal of Atticus. There's a line of dialogue that Atticus says to his daughter Scout near the beginning of the book: "Never judge a man until you've walked a mile in his shoes." I thought Psycho-Babble would be a good place to find people who had walked a mile in my shoes and talk to them. I'd just been released from a psych lock-up ward for an almost successful suicide attempt involving a box-cutter, so I hoped this would be a place where I could talk about things like that without being treated like a freak. Besides, the name of the protagonist in my favorite book, Yossarian in "Catch-22", was taken. Real first name: Chris.
Posted by trucker on December 22, 2004, at 19:31:16
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » alexandra_k, posted by Atticus on December 22, 2004, at 19:21:25
babble is a good place to come.. we usually help each other thru rough situations.. occasionally we have bad days at the same time and that is horrible.. but we generally kiss and apologize if we were rude or anything. welcome to the board.. and hope ya find love and friendship here at babble.
trucker
///////////////////////////////////////////////> Atticus Finch is one of my favorite literary characters, and "To Kill a Mockingbird" one of my favorite movies -- especially due to Gregory Peck's portrayal of Atticus. There's a line of dialogue that Atticus says to his daughter Scout near the beginning of the book: "Never judge a man until you've walked a mile in his shoes." I thought Psycho-Babble would be a good place to find people who had walked a mile in my shoes and talk to them. I'd just been released from a psych lock-up ward for an almost successful suicide attempt involving a box-cutter, so I hoped this would be a place where I could talk about things like that without being treated like a freak. Besides, the name of the protagonist in my favorite book, Yossarian in "Catch-22", was taken. Real first name: Chris.
Posted by Fallen4MyT on December 22, 2004, at 20:42:14
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » alexandra_k, posted by Atticus on December 22, 2004, at 19:21:25
That has always been a favorite book of mine and I saw the movie a zillion times on T/V it was awesome..I should have been Boo Radley (sp) :) another great babble name hahahah
Posted by Jai Narayan on December 22, 2004, at 21:04:51
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » Atticus, posted by Fallen4MyT on December 22, 2004, at 20:42:14
My name is my spriual name.
It was given to me by my spiritual teacher.
I adopted the name and became it legally.
So it is my real name in the real part of myself
I may in the future adopt it again.
Jai Narayan
Posted by alexandra_k on December 22, 2004, at 22:56:10
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by Jai Narayan on December 22, 2004, at 21:04:51
> My name is my spriual name.
> It was given to me by my spiritual teacher.
> I adopted the name and became it legally.
> So it is my real name in the real part of myself
> I may in the future adopt it again.
> Jai NarayanDo you mean that you got your name legally changed? I would like to change mine - to my posting name actually, though I'd put my full first name in as my last name. I think my father would throw all sorts of fits (maybe thats the point) 'but then I'll lose it when I get married anyways daaaaaaaaaaad' (not that I plan to -ha!)
Posted by ed_uk on December 23, 2004, at 7:59:10
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by trucker on December 22, 2004, at 19:31:16
Hello Atticus,
I think Atticus is a good name. I'm glad you shared your reason for choosing it.
Best Regards,
Ed.
Posted by Jai Narayan on December 23, 2004, at 8:28:16
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » Jai Narayan, posted by alexandra_k on December 22, 2004, at 22:56:10
My parents were hurt at first but they got used to it.
I love my spiritual name.
I changed back to the one I was born with when I left the religion.
now I find a drifting back, so hence I am using it again on babble.Your name is lovely.
Parents get over stuff like this....
I think?
Posted by vwoolf on December 23, 2004, at 13:15:44
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by Jai Narayan on December 23, 2004, at 8:28:16
I chose VWoolf because I think I identify quite a bit with Virginia Woolf and was reading ""A Room of One's Own" when I started contributing to PB. I identified because like her, I was a writer, I was confused about my gender, because I was abused, because I had thoughts of suicide. But not so much any more. I just identify now because we are both writers. And I love to give myself that title.
I am not giving out my real name. I have disclosed too much on the boards, and I have quite a well-known public profile.
Posted by trucker on December 23, 2004, at 13:52:04
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by vwoolf on December 23, 2004, at 13:15:44
none the less... you are welcome here with vwolf.. glad you are at babble where you can talk and be heard and sometimes helped..
trucker
///////////////////////////////////////////////> I chose VWoolf because I think I identify quite a bit with Virginia Woolf and was reading ""A Room of One's Own" when I started contributing to PB. I identified because like her, I was a writer, I was confused about my gender, because I was abused, because I had thoughts of suicide. But not so much any more. I just identify now because we are both writers. And I love to give myself that title.
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> I am not giving out my real name. I have disclosed too much on the boards, and I have quite a well-known public profile.
Posted by Angel Girl on December 23, 2004, at 16:19:55
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by trucker on December 23, 2004, at 13:52:04
Angel Girl is a shortened version of a name that was bestowed upon me at a different message board that I no longer go to.
AG
Posted by ed_uk on December 23, 2004, at 17:10:52
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by Angel Girl on December 23, 2004, at 16:19:55
Well it's a very nice name! I'm glad you kept it!
Ed.
Posted by AdaGrace on December 24, 2004, at 6:14:08
In reply to How did you choose your posting name?, posted by ed_uk on December 17, 2004, at 6:33:26
Ada is a family name that is very dear to me...and I had a lover who once always ended our conversations with "Say Goodnight, Gracie" after the George Burns series. I've used this as my passwords in the past, but descided when I came here that I wanted to be AdaGrace.
Posted by Slavegirl on December 25, 2004, at 18:57:51
In reply to How did you choose your posting name?, posted by ed_uk on December 17, 2004, at 6:33:26
Often choose passwords or user names and forget them....so I stuck with one I'd remember...Slavegirl...what I think I am most times...whether it's at work or home....I am the Slave..picking up, fixing, mending, cleaning, cooking,....overworked, underpaid, depressed...and still a girl at heart, even if I feel 95 in the shade.
SG
Posted by just plain jane on December 26, 2004, at 17:07:53
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by Slavegirl on December 25, 2004, at 18:57:51
just plain jane
Posted by AdaGrace on December 28, 2004, at 6:14:06
In reply to It's who I am., posted by just plain jane on December 26, 2004, at 17:07:53
Janey, you say so much in those three words.
Posted by Angel Girl on December 28, 2004, at 17:27:10
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » Angel Girl, posted by ed_uk on December 23, 2004, at 17:10:52
> Well it's a very nice name! I'm glad you kept it!
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> Ed.
edYes, but I'm seriously thinking of changing it for a couple of reasons.
1. I'm afraid of someone from other message boards discovering me here and then reading my inner most thoughts.
2. I hardly feel like an angel these days. Not that I'm bad but I'm always depressed and that's not how I picture angels to be.
So, I see a new name coming very shortly when I can think of something.
A VERY depressed AG
Posted by trucker on December 28, 2004, at 17:39:59
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » ed_uk, posted by Angel Girl on December 28, 2004, at 17:27:10
AG i wouldn't change my name.. you don't have to share with anyone here who you are. don't admit anything and they won't know. don't let others rule your life.
trucker
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> 1. I'm afraid of someone from other message boards discovering me here and then reading my inner most thoughts.
Posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:14:22
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name?, posted by trucker on December 28, 2004, at 17:39:59
> AG i wouldn't change my name.. you don't have to share with anyone here who you are. don't admit anything and they won't know. don't let others rule your life.
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> trucker
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> > 1. I'm afraid of someone from other message boards discovering me here and then reading my inner most thoughts.
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>I really don't feel comfortable with my posting name. If anybody from any of the other boards I've been to or still go to came here, they'd know it's me and I don't want that.
Also, I just don't think that "Angel Girl" is all that appropriate for me anymore. I'm too down and depressed, spiraling quickly back to the "black hole" and I don't know how to stop it. I don't picture angels being that way. I'm still trying to think of a name that is more appropriate for me. I had picked one but when I tried to register with it, somebody already had it even though I've never seen it being used. :(
AG
Posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 11:26:22
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:14:22
do you have a T? i was just wondering if you do and what they think about the spiraling down to the whole. have they ever mentioned light therapy? this time of the year we get less light and it affects our moods etc.. and can make us feel l ike we are going back to the black whole that we use to hide. there are specail lights to use for this. maybe you could try that. i hope things get better for you soon. we are here to talk if you need us. and if you want to babble mail me i can be reached by clicking on the trucker in blue at top of page. stay in touch and i'll listen if you need me to.
trucker
Posted by Angel Girl on December 31, 2004, at 21:37:51
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » Angel Girl, posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 11:26:22
> do you have a T? i was just wondering if you do and what they think about the spiraling down to the whole. have they ever mentioned light therapy? this time of the year we get less light and it affects our moods etc.. and can make us feel l ike we are going back to the black whole that we use to hide. there are specail lights to use for this. maybe you could try that. i hope things get better for you soon. we are here to talk if you need us. and if you want to babble mail me i can be reached by clicking on the trucker in blue at top of page. stay in touch and i'll listen if you need me to.
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> trucker
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truckerI thought I had replied you before but maybe I tried on one of the evenings that the boards were down. Anyway, yes I have a T but didn't feel this bad the last time I saw her. I see her again on Jan 7th. They are closed over the holidays. I'm not sure whether they do light therapy there or not. My moods seem to be running the gamut of late and I don't seem to be able to control it. In the last few days, I seem to get angry quite easily and let it out in full force. After 2 days of crap on the phone between myself, my pharmacist and my pdoc's office, I lashed out at my pdoc's receptionist and then hung up on her. I'm sure I'll here about it from my pdoc on Jan 6, which is my next appt. I just have a hard time dealing with stupidity from people over something that is sooooo simple. Tuesday I'm starting my search for a new pdoc. I was going to do that before all this crap happened but that just hammered the last nail in her coffin. Wish me luck!!!
AG
Posted by trucker on January 1, 2005, at 18:40:18
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on December 31, 2004, at 21:37:51
what meds are you on?? my memory stinks too! i have this same anger too. my is at all things i think. plus the change is knocking on my door. i get angry because of the things that could of been so different if i would of had the parently guidance that i was supposed to have. and the protection. i am on a roller coaster of sorts with that. i8 am inteligent. and i could of made something special of myself had i not had to fight to surrvive and be an adult at 3 years old. i didn't get to be a child and i wasn't taught the things i needed to live.. i am self taught in all things. i was never alloud friends (because they might find out and tell the law)and now i don't know how to make and keep them. esp when they find out my history of childhood horrors. i agree with you that you should look for a T. one who cares about you... and preferably the same sex.. men seem to have a way of taking advantage of you when you are vulnerable. i been that route and he got me selling drugs and hooked on drugs and added to the trouble. he just died.
trucker
//////////////////////////////////////////////////// Anyway, yes I have a T but didn't feel this bad the last time I saw her. I see her again on Jan 7th. They are closed over the holidays. I'm not sure whether they do light therapy there or not. My moods seem to be running the gamut of late and I don't seem to be able to control it. In the last few days, I seem to get angry quite easily and let it out in full force. After 2 days of crap on the phone between myself, my pharmacist and my pdoc's office, I lashed out at my pdoc's receptionist and then hung up on her. I'm sure I'll here about it from my pdoc on Jan 6, which is my next appt. I just have a hard time dealing with stupidity from people over something that is sooooo simple. Tuesday I'm starting my search for a new pdoc. I was going to do that before all this crap happened but that just hammered the last nail in her coffin. Wish me luck!!!
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> AG
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Posted by Angel Girl on January 4, 2005, at 16:04:11
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » Angel Girl, posted by trucker on January 1, 2005, at 18:40:18
> what meds are you on?? my memory stinks too! i have this same anger too. my is at all things i think. plus the change is knocking on my door. i get angry because of the things that could of been so different if i would of had the parently guidance that i was supposed to have. and the protection. i am on a roller coaster of sorts with that. i8 am inteligent. and i could of made something special of myself had i not had to fight to surrvive and be an adult at 3 years old. i didn't get to be a child and i wasn't taught the things i needed to live.. i am self taught in all things. i was never alloud friends (because they might find out and tell the law)and now i don't know how to make and keep them. esp when they find out my history of childhood horrors. i agree with you that you should look for a T. one who cares about you... and preferably the same sex.. men seem to have a way of taking advantage of you when you are vulnerable. i been that route and he got me selling drugs and hooked on drugs and added to the trouble. he just died.
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trucker
I can hear the tears in your words. You are very wounded. I hope that you have a T that is compassionate and gentle with you. You have a lot of childhood memories that need healing and that will take some time. I agree that a female T would be good for you. My T is female for the same reasons (childhood memories). I'm sorry for your loss but pardon my insensitivity, I think you are better off without this person in your life. I hope that comment does not upset or offend you. I'm sorry that you were denied a normal childhood and friends. I can understand why you would have a hard time making friends and keeping them now. Maybe you don't need to be so open with new friends and tell them your past. Would that help you to maintain friendships? I too, have a hard time making and keeping friends. Abandonment is one of my issues. You say that you are angry at everything, that would be me too lately. I seem to anger very easily, where before I would be the one who would not want to start conflict and keep the peace. These days it does not take much to ignite me. I had to make some apologies today to a couple of people, my pharmacist and my pdoc's receptionist. The jury is still out on how my pdoc will handle this situation with me when I see her for my next appt on Thursday. I can't remember if I mentioned before but I am BPII and PTSD from my childhood. I am assuming by what you write that you are the same?
My meds are:
Tegretol -- 200mg bid (hoping to increase by 100mg daily)
Effexor XR -- 150mg AM/75mg PM
Wellbutrin SR -- 100mg daily (hoping to increase by 100mg daily)
Klonopin -- .5mg bid
Xanax -- .5mg 4Xdaily (or as required, which may be less)My losing my composure with the pharmacist and Pdoc's receptionist was over trying to get the increases that I have stated above. I thought these were very simple increases but apparently not. I didn't even get a renewal of my current dosage. I will have to see what my pdoc says about them on Thursday.
Obviously the Tegretol isn't doing anything to help with stabilization of my moods and it doesn't seem to matter how much AD I take, my depression keeps worsening. I really don't know what to do meds-wise at this point. The only thing that does work for me is Xanax. It is a Godsend. Now if only I can find out how to either avoid stress or handle it without taking the Xanax.
So, what meds are you on? Do you have a female T?
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AG
Posted by trucker on January 4, 2005, at 16:59:05
In reply to Re: How did you choose your posting name? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on January 4, 2005, at 16:04:11
i was on lexapro... i just weened down and got off it with out T permission. i had pills from before.. zoloft. and i am taking them. my T is real busy and she doesn't consol me. she only medicates me. and i am upset with the fact that there is no time for me to have T i see her once every couple of months and i not getting any where. i hated the no energy of lexapro. and when i was on zoloft before i had energy..'
i have PTSD AND ANXIETY..i wonder if they have you on too many things all at once. maybe something is clashing with the other
trucker
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