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Posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 6:24:51
I think that was a movie title from several years back. If I remember correctly it was about AIDS. I'm not sure if it was a made for TV movie, something from cable or what, but that movie title has stuck with me every since I first heard it. It describes my life. My home. My job. My family. My marriage. So many times I say to myself... "I'm dancing as fast as I can, but I'm getting nowhere" I doing everything I can, for everyone, and I'm getting nowhere." When does the music slow down? When does the intermission start, because my feet hurt. My body hurts, and I am afraid I will fall down and the dance will be over. It will be then that I realize all I did was dance, dance, dance in circles and nothing got better. No world peace was met by my furious dancing. And I was not sane because of it.
I just want to go fishing. Can I just go fishing for a few days? Can I go to the beach and watch the sunset? Can I sleep for a week and a day?
No, because I'm dancing as fast as I can.
Posted by Toph on November 4, 2004, at 9:06:19
In reply to I'm dancing as fast as I can, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 6:24:51
From where I sit, you seem like a pretty good dancer to me, AdaGrace.
Posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 17:35:55
In reply to I'm dancing as fast as I can, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 6:24:51
I think it's very interesting that it was that particular movie title that resonated with you, because it's actually a movie/book title by
Barbara Gordon, a news documentary producer and it's about her time spent in a psychiatric institution. Hmm...
Posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:08:18
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can » AdaGrace, posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 17:35:55
So it wasn't about someone who had aides? For all these years I have thought I somehow associated with someone who was a homosexual male with AIDS. And to clarify, I am not stereotyping either. I remember this movie coming out in the 80's? Maybe? When Aids was just being talked about and all people were told was that only certain people got it. And for some unknown reason I had it in my head that it was about a homosexual male who had AIDS. Hmmm. Now I just really have to rethink this thing all together. NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH HOMOSEXUALITY. Please don't think I am being uncivil or hurtful to anyone. I can't take another block.
Does it help that I relate to the book "The Bell Jar", and what was that movie that "Patty Duke" was in where they kept sticking her in a tub of water with that horrible canvas covering on it so only her head would stick out......and she was able to rip the tarp open with her toe........but I digress don't I.
Posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:09:38
In reply to Re: I'm dancing » AdaGrace, posted by Toph on November 4, 2004, at 9:06:19
and if not, why not?......just kidding
Posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 18:20:00
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:08:18
> So it wasn't about someone who had aides?
Well it could be, Why are you homophobic? *KIDDING!* I know for sure that there was a movie and a book by Barbara Gordon with the same title. The movie was really superficial though. I thought it was interesting that the title struck me the same way that it did you, a hysterical dance trying to just keep living. That's not what she meant by it though, it was just part of a joke that she thought was funny I was surprised. The book was very good, I have it, actually.
P.S
Your post to Toph made me laugh
Posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:23:31
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can » AdaGrace, posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 18:20:00
That's me, happy go lucky, trying to make someone laugh....isn't that part of the "Dancing as Fast as I Can" theme.... make everyone happy, please them all, leave them with a smile.. but not being able to smile inside. Life is a puzzle isn't it?
Posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 19:54:28
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can » Gabbix2, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:23:31
> Life is a puzzle isn't it?
Yes, and I've spent most of mine looking for the missing pieces. :(
Posted by Toph on November 5, 2004, at 9:20:44
In reply to Re: Are you flirting with me? » Toph, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 18:09:38
Except I'm normally a little shy, except when it comes to dancing, I like dancing, and fishing, too.
Sadly, I went on what will probably be my last fishing trip with my blind, 80-year old father on the Red Deer and the Ram rivers between Calgary and Edmonton in August with Garry and his wife Connie. They're fun and they'll teach you to fly fish if you don't already know. I saw the Calgary Stampede and visited Banff and Lake Louise. But this is probably more than you wanted to know, though.
http://www.tailwaterdrifters.com/
-Toph
Posted by Susan47 on November 5, 2004, at 22:55:23
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can » AdaGrace, posted by Gabbix2 on November 4, 2004, at 17:35:55
This was actually a fabulous book, I read it several years ago and maybe now it's time to re-read it .... the first time I had never seen a psychologist .. psychiatrists, yes, but 'chologists are different.
Posted by AdaGrace on November 5, 2004, at 23:12:06
In reply to Re: Yeah, kinda » AdaGrace, posted by Toph on November 5, 2004, at 9:20:44
Actually I like to fish more than I like to dance. I don't know steps and tend to dance to my own drum so to speak, but fishing, now I like to fish. However, I don't know squat about fly fishing, all that work, sorta like fishing for bass. Give me a worm and a bobber and I'll do just fine with perch. Sometimes I get brave and forget the bobber and go for the catfish, but i tend to not pay attention and usually lose the fish. I think my idea of fishing is laying on the pond dam and gazing at the clouds until my pole slide into the water. At least that is how it was when I was a child. Now there is no time for fishing. Have been maybe twice in 20 years. Hoooo Hummmmm
Posted by AdaGrace on November 5, 2004, at 23:13:40
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can, posted by Susan47 on November 5, 2004, at 22:55:23
For the simply fact that I pretty much didn't know what it was about.
Posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 18:18:17
In reply to Re: Yeah, kinda » Toph, posted by AdaGrace on November 5, 2004, at 23:12:06
That's sad AG (can i call you that for short?) 'cause you sure have what it takes to be a good fisherperson... patience, that is. 20 years is an aweful long time for someone who loves the water, the outdoors and the primordial hunt for food (I mostly throw them back now, except Walleyes, they're too good not to eat). You know, I bet if you think real hard, between your family, your friends, your workmates, your neighbors, whomever, someone out there is dying for you to ask them to dig up some nightcrawlers and go catch some Perch with you (they're not so bad fried up with some potatoes either). Hell, I know a great spot where we could lay back and let those fish catch themselves while we talked about why it took you so damn long to go fishing again.
-Toph
Posted by 64bowtie on November 7, 2004, at 2:11:16
In reply to I'm dancing as fast as I can, posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 6:24:51
AG,
....and you do it so well...
Rod
Posted by AdaGrace on November 7, 2004, at 14:43:23
In reply to Re: Yeah » AdaGrace, posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 18:18:17
I guess I just want everyone to leave me alone long enough to go fishing by myself. But then again, there is no pond on my property and I would have to ask permission to go somewhere else. I have a small garden pond in my backyard with goldfish in it (no, I don't fish for them), and I sometimes sit there for the few minutes I get alone. That doesn't come often enough. Ever hear that song by Billy Squire "Everybody Wandts You".....(I know this link will not work, because I tried it before.) Sometimes I feel this way, everybody want me, needs me, and it's not in a good way that makes me feel good inside. So I sit here, longing for the peace I know will not come as soon as I like. Longing for those lazy days of summer when I could go out, sit by myself, think about the future, wonder what I was on this earth for......things like that. I often wonder why I am here. Is it just to serve, clean up after, do for, satify others, and sacrifice myself and my self esteem? Good God, where did this all come from?
Ada (whining with wine) Grace
Posted by AdaGrace on November 7, 2004, at 14:44:34
In reply to Re: I'm dancing as fast as I can » AdaGrace, posted by 64bowtie on November 7, 2004, at 2:11:16
Eventually the band stops playing and the music is still in my head......but noone is there dancing with me......I dance alone.
Posted by 64Bowtie on November 8, 2004, at 7:06:54
In reply to Re: But » 64bowtie, posted by AdaGrace on November 7, 2004, at 14:44:34
...I'm waiving my arms..., loudly...
Rod
Posted by AdaGrace on November 9, 2004, at 7:20:58
In reply to But, But, But » AdaGrace » ..., posted by 64Bowtie on November 8, 2004, at 7:06:54
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